Suicide Pages with Dr. Lulu. The Podcast

As a pediatrician and a mom, there are very few times that we are out of character.

This week's guest embodies the mom, physician, empath, life-saver …

After he went to sleep next to his wife and woke up at the kitchen window, with his wife dying within minutes...anyone else would have been thrown …

Derek Butler is a man after my heart!

It took us so long to get together to but when we finally did, this episode was DYNAMITE!!

He is a survivor, and a sur-thrivor, who has discovered that self-care, healthy …

Our first guest this week is a sister, a friend, a fellow African, a coach, and a fellow mom of an LGBTQ+ kid!

We met and clicked right away as was discussed in the show, and our bond and sisterhood have continued to …

In this concluding part of her interview, Heather tells us about her second suicide attempt and how and when she decided she needed to get better and heal and leave all her troubles behind and start moving forward with …

Fellow podcaster and childhood trauma survivor Heather joins us this week to tell us her story of pain and betrayal of trust as a child. As you know, I always talk about how the betrayal of children is at the top of the …

This week, we talk with Ms. Sade Cutler. An African American woman who was treated so wrong by her former place of work to add to the list of …

When we hear of pivoting and changing and rebranding, many of us do not think about what this week's guest did. At 56yr young, she found herself …

This week's guest is an author and a speaker who came to visit us from the future!

Yes, she really did!

She shares about chronic suicidality from early childhood and what finally happened before she figured out that she …

What do Betrayal, Marital Infidelity, Depression, Grief, Anguish, Abandonment, and Trauma have in common? Our second guest for the week!

Ms. Beatrice shares the pain of marital infidelity and how she barely survived it. 

In the first episode of this week, Coach Benson Fox, a young Jewish coach with wisdom far beyond his age! 

I am so proud of this young man and his insights.

He talks candidly about the who, the why, and the what of …

It is with a heavy heart that I write this knowing full well that at this very moment, the United States Congress is voting to impeach a president …

Our first guest this week tells such a powerful story of survival! She talks about trauma from a tender age, and generational trauma and pain and …

In this very first episode of Suicide Pages for the Year 2021, we are continuing with what I am dubbing our "trauma series". We have been interviewing social workers, therapists, and the likes in the past several …

This is an ultrashort episode where I am simply celebrating a fantastic end of the year of a very weird year!

2020 has been that kind of year, what …

Gelisa Lewis thought she had it all. After enduring sexual abuse as a child, she thought trauma was behind her.

She thought having a child would …

Our Second Episode for this week takes a peek at suicide grief in one Black family's life. 

Samantha has so bravely shared her family's story of …

My first guest this week was such a hoot!

Coach Lolita Walker and I hit it off right off the bat!

She is as energetic and charismatic and witty as I …

Dr. Madhuri is an infectious disease physician who literally won my heart with her youth and her vision.

This episode deals with something I experienced myself. Burnout!

Like me, she was also suicidal and one day, she …

After her own suicide attempt, this week's guest found her calling.

She decided to make the necessary changes to begin her healing and helping journey.

A 15-yr veteran Licenced Practical Counselor, Chantel shares about …

December 2020!

Some of my favorite guests, my Suicide Pages book!

Overview of this year with a focus mostly on the good, and less on the not-so-good.

Melissa White was one of those guests. Yup, the ones you never forget!

She is beautiful, she is smart, but she has also been severely traumatized in …

What are psychic pain and cognitive constriction?

This week's guest is one of those smart Black women you would love to keep listening to...

As a …

Today, she is a licensed clinical social worker, addiction specialist and a certification supervisor. But, she wasn't always that. Once upon a time, she was a woman with a broken heart. A mother who was unable to get up …

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Delora Evans is a Black gurl who SERIOUSLY rocks!

She dropped ALL kinds of serious nuggets right from the jump!

You will …

Julia Bugsby is a woman on a mission!

She is a fellow podcaster and fellow "sur-thrivor"!

I loooove her story of survival and thriving through …

Dr. Karen was such a delight to interview.

She is a retired OBGYN who has found her calling in energy and mindfulness work.

She talked about her own …

Tasha Hunter, MSW, LCSW says that the first language ever she learned was pain.

Growing up in a mentally, physically, and sexually abusive home, all Tasha ever heard was that she was worthless, unloved, and unwanted.

In …

Dr. Araba Chintoh is a Canadian Psychiatrist after my heart!

She specializes in research into Schizophrenia, she is smart, poised, and determined to educate the world about mental illness and its consequences.

She …

Dr. Felecia Sumner is a superstar as far as I am concerned!

She freakin' had a baby girl smack dab in the middle of the Covid-19 Lockdown, had some complications after her baby, and lived to tell it!

She and her family …

Of all my guests ever, Dr. Ronda takes the cake with her uniqueness! A Psychiatrist and Integrative Behavioral Health Specialist!

She is so smart, she is so smooth, she is so stress-free in her direct approach to …

My second guest this week has the most incredible story.

She has been depressed and suicidal since the age of 6 or 7!

Losing her beloved father as a …

What do you do?

What can you do?

When your ex-boyfriend kills himself right in front of you!

One of this week's guests had to endure seeing that type of horror movie play out before her eyes when she was only 18.

Her …

Dr. Berens and I go back a bit in our DPC journeys. She is also a fellow Woman-in-Medicine so, I have a very soft spot for her.

Find out how she went from employee to starting her own practice at the New Year, only to …

This week's first guest, in the person of Dr. Ball is another Black girl who rocks!

In honor of the international day of the girl child that was on 10/11/2020, I am featuring two Black girls who rock, and she is one of …

Our second girl-child (all grown up) that rocks for this week is Dr. Delicia Haynes, another Direct Primary Care Physician based in Florida. She discusses the changes and transitional processes her practice put in place …

Hmmm, you can never miss a Naija fella... "dem no de eva carray last"! (Look that up.)

My second interview this week is non-other than a fellow Naija guy, a psychiatrist, a smart, well "edumacated" (6 university degrees …

Dear Listener, 

If I ever had a twin sister, her name would be Dr. Ann Contrucci, and she would be Italian!

This week's first interview took place in …

Whoa!!

Our second episode this week, the last couple of days in September, the National Suicide Awareness AND Prevention month, is the BOMB!

I found me a fairy God-Mother in my thought process and in medicine!

A …

Hello, dears,

This episode was recorded in September of 2019 as a Facebook live episode, so, it might come out in a different mode than the others. 

…

This was a talk that I recorded for a virtual event hosted by the United Nations in Ghana earlier this year.

It was a pre-recorded event, and I essentially downloaded the audio version for you.

I decided it is very …

The second doctor this week is a pediatrician like me. 

A Nigerian like me, and an Igbo woman! She is an ER physician and shares her insights and her thoughts and of course, how she and her family are dealing with the …

Dear Listeners,

This is a special episode of Suicide Pages.

One of two this week. Both dedicated to physician wellness during this pandemic.

Just last week another physician lost his life to suicide, bringing the number …

To this date, Dr. Fernandez is the one person that gets me!

He is a child and adolescent psychiatrist and he gets it!

He talks about the COVID-19 and …

It's officially National Suicide Awareness month!

What are you doing to ensure it is going to be a productive one?

This week, I present to you:

A writer. A video designer.  An author. 

A man who admits to childhood …

Dear listener,

Who do you get when you mix a realist with an ardent reader and a comedian who also happens to struggle with depression and suicidal ideation?

Leo Flowers, that's who!

This week's guest was such a treat, …

Like most well-meaning adults in today's world, the events of the past several weeks and months have been extremely challenging for me. This past …

In this episode which I publish on my birthday week (yay! welcome to 51!), I am essentially appealing to you my audience.

I start by talking briefly …

Ladies and Gentlemen!

This is it right here!

This is one of the most in-depth conversations I have had this year so far!

My White brother, Andy, and two brand new Black Brothers Al and Will and I had an in-depth look …

Ladies and Gentlemen, what happens when your "Flu-like" symptoms in the middle of May turn out to be, umm, COVID 19?!

Those of you who know Eric Rishi, know you are in for a treat any time he stops by!

Believe it or …

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is it right here!

I am so happy to share this interview with you all! Here is another female doctor with a passion for saving lives, and a woman who cares about suicide!

Dr. Torie Sepah is an …

Second Psychiatrist for the week! But this time, with a twist!

I present to you a trauma psychiatrist that is "educating the universe about …

Ladies and Gentlemen, if I ever had a twin, I think I met her the day I interviewed one of this week's guests!

Her name is Dr. Kavethra and I …

This week's guest was an absolute delight in SO many ways!

Not only is she a fellow "mochalicious" female, but she is also a sister-doc, and most …

In this episode, I talk about my upcoming book launch. My brand new book called "How to Teach Your Children About Racism", is out on Amazon and it is making waves!!

So far, it is number 1 in 3 categories and counting! …

She is a medical doctor, an entrepreneur, a fashionista, a mom, a daughter, a divorcee, a medical resident, and a Black Woman. 

She is also a rape, …

Have you ever thought about what it means to grow up in a family with polygamy?

My second guest for the week did.

She has also written 32 books, is a …

Phew!

Have you ever heard about Post Traumatic Growth Syndrome?

While listening to this episode again, I was struck by the sheer strength exhibited by this week's guest Mrs. Rebecca Tervo of rebeccatervo.com!

She is a …

WARNING! This is a 2hr episode!

It is raw, it is real, it is about RACISM and injustice in America.

Listen and learn.

I pondered about breaking it …

In this week's episode, we listen to Luiza Martin. A multiple suicide attempt survivor.

She talks briefly about the trauma she has endured growing …

In honor of George Floyd and all the Black men and women, boys and girls who have been brutally killed by the police who were sworn to serve and …

This week's guest is a true fire starter! She talks about everything from colorism and discrimination to embracing the diagnosis of mental illness in …

Ladies and gentlemen, you are in for a treat this week!

A unicorn of all unicorns came to visit! He is not only a fellow physician, he is also …

In this bonus episode, I am speaking from my heart as a Black woman living in America, in Texas to be exact. I am talking to listeners about my own personal experience and the experiences of all Black people in America.

Yay!!

Finally, I get to publish my good friend Andy's episode!

Ladies and gentlemen, y'all are in for a treat!

Meet #TheAndyGrant, the guest of my …

Our second guest this week is none other than Margarita Castro-Zarraga. She is a fellow DPC doc, a foreign grad, a mom, and an entrepreneur holding …

Dr. Esther is on a mission to not only talk real-talk, but also treat real pain. The sort that keeps most of us up at night, the sort that prevents us from saying something, saying anything about it... The sort that …

Our second guest this week is none other than Ms. McKenzie!

She is back today with all sorts of real insights and helps us truly look into the lives …

Ladies and gentlemen, today's guest is Mari, mi hermana, mi amiga que es muy Linda, con un Corazon mas bueno. This is my Spanish for my sister, my …

Chris our second guest this week was such a fun person to interview, that I dubbed him my White twin brother! Full of nuggets of wisdom and …

This week's guest is nothing short of a phenom. She is a true example of chronically living with self-hatred and the story she shares today shows how deep the voices inside your head can be. How incapacitating and also, …

Today's episode is a real treat!

My guest is Ms. Sherna Alexander, from the island of Trinidad and Tobago! She shares some really painful …

Welcome back to a brand new episode of Suicide Pages! It feels like it has been ages since I recorded a brand new episode, and I am extremely happy to welcome back our guest for this week. He is none other than Rishi …

In this episode, I talk about the obvious elephant in the room, Covid - 19, but not for very long. I feel it is a necessary mention, but only for a moment. Then I talk about other things like the most recent teen …

In this concluding episode, Dr. Heather is sharing a bit about her own family's dealing with suicide. 

She talks a bit more about emotional and moral injury. Guns, and safety in the home, removing judgment of people who …

I am so excited about this week's episode which is a 2-part series. 

This week, we meet Heather, an ED physician, an entrepreneur, and a woman about her business. She is a petit-framed powerhouse who I have been …

As a mental health nurse, Meagan knows first hand what it is like to look in the eyes of persons who suffer from various mental health issues in the while trying to help them.  She knows only too well, the pain of being …

As a young Black Nigerian American, Nnamdi aka Papa grew up in South Carolina, attended a Christian school, his parents divorced at the age of 9 yrs, …

Ladies and Gentlemen,

To date, this is one of my favorite episodes!

My guest this week is my sister in so many ways: she is funny, smart, has been through depression, is a family physician-turned blogger and podcaster, …

We often hear the phrase "when life gives you lemons...", "when life gives you lemons", but what if life does truly give you lemons?? What if your …

In continuation of our mindfulness series, we listen to our teacher and yoga instructor, Eric. 

He continues to deconstruct mindfulness in today's …

If you have been a listener to my podcast, then you know Mr. Rishi Eric Infanti. The man. The legend. The Yogi. The teacher. 

Then you know this episode is going to be as rich as it is deep. And he will not disappoint …

Another unicorn in the person of Pastor Kevin Wilson, my first chaplain so far. Kevin comes bearing gifts, gifts of hope and survival and accomplishments. He is a chaplain at Rush Hospital Chicago, and a father of …

What can I say about today's guest? She is absolutely dynamic, full of life, charming, has a megawatt smile, is able to make me laugh out loud while …

Social Anxiety Disorder is a clinical phenomenon that does not get its due credit. Many sufferers either don't know they have it, or many around them don't recognize it as a bonafide diagnosis. This week's guest Ms. …

What is our purpose in this life? 

Do our friends know our innermost minds? 

Are we truly living up to our potentials? 

How are we all doing in the …

Today is not only the last day of the year, it is the last day of the decade, and since it is also a Tuesday, we have a special End of the Year episode!

It is with great humility, yet pride and joy that I say a TEXAS …

When she discovered she was HIV positive at the tender age of 16, Ms. Mabena had to literarily decide to live or die. She struggled with frequent thoughts of being better off dead until she realized one day that her …

In this episode, I introduce my brand new baby!! My book titled A Teen's Life, in which we take a critical look at the lives of 12 youngsters, ages ranging from early teens to the early twenties. It is essentially about …

When an ER physician has taken care of an 8yr old attempted suicide but has nowhere to send them, what does she do?

Dr. Leah shares her heartbreaking …

In this second part (I promise I don't cry quite as much), Angel paints the story of how things finally begin to turn around for her, but not before some more drama in true Angel-style. 

She shares how she met the love …

Dear family,

What do you do when you are sexually molested by a family member at the age of five? Grow up with a verbally and emotionally abusive …

Today we are speaking to another unicorn... a Black male, and this one actually endorses psychotherapy when one is hurting and needing to find their way. 

Our Guest Mr. B Lee is an educator in every sense of the word. …

A very happy Veteran's Day to all my fellow Vets out there. To all the servicemen and women in boots, I see ya'll. I appreciate y'all and much love. 

Today, we are going to examine some myths about suicide that I came …

Today's guest is special in so many ways to me. We both are immigrants, both are authors and speakers, and we both have fibromyalgia.

Seema takes us …

From the very beginning, I knew Nya was my twin. Bear with me and my croaky voice in this episode, but she paints a picture that parallels mine so much, that I call her my twin!

An Author (a Poet), an Internal Medicine …

As a pediatrician and mother, this interview was hard at times. My guest, another unicorn has suffered the ULTIMATE loss of all, that of a child, and a tiny newborn at that. 

He shares his struggles with depression …

This episode is dedicated to you! All of you! Everyone who has made my journey into your hearts and minds possible. 

To my guests, I thank you for making my dream to be an interviewer come true. For taking time out to …

When you are only 24 yrs old and have attempted suicide 3 times (between the ages of 19 and 21yrs) due to chronic depression, feelings of …

We can all agree that losing a sibling is a very tough thing to deal with, now imagine losing not one, but two siblings, and a couple of other family members in the space of a few years. That is what our guest today had …

Earlier this year in March, Andrea's daughter's 14yr old friend died by suicide. It had a devastating effect on her daughter. What do you do as a mom …

The last time she attempted suicide (her 5th) a few years ago, this week's guest, D'Tondja Foster aka Deedee did not think she would survive it. In …

In this special episode, I am publishing one of my recent Facebook Live videos as a podcast in honor of September being National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month.

I talk about the top 13 reasons why your teen might …

Y'all, I had SO much fun interviewing Sharon! She is a HOOT! She describes herself as a wife of an Army Veteran, a mother of 2 and a grandmother. 

I …

Listening to this episode, one would not believe that Vicki and I just met a few minutes before this recording. We had an awesome time together. …

Beth Lopez, my first guest of Hispanic ancestry, was such a delight to interview. She calls herself a Universal Soul Coach, a Life Transformer, and …

From a very young age, Debbie knew she was different. She "felt" her bullying was her "fault". She lived in what she calls "victim-hood" from age 8 …

Unless you have been living under a huge rock, you must have heard about all the children and young people who have died from self-inflicted injuries lately. You must have heard that suicide is the second leading …

What does Yoga, Buddhism, PTSD, The Marines, Wellness and Healing have in common? Eric Rishi of course! 

This gentle very polite war hero with a soft …

With a name like Estelle, one expects a beautiful person, and I was not disappointed. This woman is nothing short of a beautiful soul inside and out. …

Ladies and Gentlemen, meet Kristin Norris, D.O. A fellow ex-lady in boots, a mom, a soft-spoken psychiatrist, entrepreneur, and friend. 

She speaks today about military life and suicide, touching on her own personal …

Describing herself as a "housewife with a GED", a grandmother and a "mathlexic", Wendy is one of those people whom you feel like you have known for a …

In this episode, I discuss suicide in a broad overview. The causes and confounding factors. I discuss some statistics briefly, and the fact that the majority of people who die by suicide do not have mental illness, they …

At the young age of 20 yr, my beautiful, smart, articulate and talented niece, Khrystine, has already tasted betrayal, ostracism and learned some …

At 67yr young, Dr. Lynette, and anesthesiologist and former Lt. Col in the United States Air Force would appear to be living her life out loud. She …

Antoinette is originally from the Caribbean Islands, and currently living in Canada. She tells us a story about trials and survival. Suicide attempts and victory. "I must say, I don't blame anybody" are her words when …

 Originally from Scotland in the UK, Melanie moved to Australia to "escape her woes", but found out that they followed her-in her words,  "through …

Hello and welcome to season 1, episode 1 of my brand new podcast, Suicide Pages.

Ever since I was introduced to the world of podcasts a few years …

An ultra-brief intro to the podcast!