Self Developed Life

Forgiveness Pilgrimage to Prison To Visit His Murderer Mother https://www.thiscrazyjourney.com  Fathers day is emotional, and most men don't deal with emotion well. However this man does. Watch on You Tube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yav7YRYBbbE&t=5s

This is a message Andrew O'Brien wrote, and we talk about his life in this episode "Prostitution, War, Suicide and Murder. These are 4 of the major hurdles I experienced in my life by the age of 23.  I am getting ready to embark on a journey of inner transformation. I am calling myself out... 

I don't play "victim" to my experiences, however I have allowed these life experiences to jade me and turn me into a man I am not proud of.  I was raised by a prostitute who later became known as a famous murdered the media called the "Black Widow of Texas". I had to make the hard decision to testify against my mother in court for murder after she asked me to frame someone else for the murder she committed. I never planned on saying anything until she later tried to convince others that my brother was responsible.  

I've been deployed to Iraq and I've even attempted to take my own life at one point.  I have spent these last 31 years of living trying to please everyone else... trying to make everyone else happy... trying to be what I thought everyone wanted me to be. I would become a chameleon to my environment just to try and earn love that I had craved since childhood.  

Recently I lost my unborn son, and it sparked something inside of me. I have 2 children that are my life, but I've spent the majority of their life away working and trying to build an empire in my own business.  As soon as I noticed this, I moved my family out of the city onto an 18 acre homestead in Texas. I am now going through my own journey of self realization and self transformation. I am spending however long it takes to learn about myself. To overcome the ghosts of my past. To figure out what it is that actually makes me happy.  

I know nothing about myself. To be honest, I'm scared. To be fully transparent, if things don't change I know that this life would end a lot sooner than it needs to.  As a man, I have children that need me... I am not teaching these children how to live if I don't take care of myself first. It's now time for me to be selfish so that I can become everything I'm supposed to be and the father they deserve!"  

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