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N.A.R.C. Troopers: Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators

168 EpisodesProduced by Prajinta Pesqueda Website

N.A.R.C. provides information to facilitate learning and healing from abuse betrayal following relationships with cluster B disordered individuals (narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths as well as comorbidities like addiction). Content will cover carefully researched material, collaboration with ment… read more

168 Episodes | 2019 - 2022

The Borderline and the Narcissist

November 28th, 2022


The relationship with the borderline and narcissist is powerful. By themselves, they are a tornado. Together, they are the perfect storm.

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The Narcopath is EVERYTHING You Can Imagine

November 20th, 2022


The narcissist plays many roles in a relationship. Each one is so very real and convincing that it cannot be detected by even the most brilliant …

How to Survive the Holidays Live Webinar 11/5/22

November 6th, 2022


For those who missed it, this is the part of the webinar where tips are offered to manage stress, anxiety, and depression during the holiday season. …


November 2nd, 2022


This colloquial phrase has two meanings, and we are going to take a look at both. Maybe it's is exactly what we need to do.

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A Silly Playful Spin on the Trending Narcissist

October 30th, 2022


I practice an accent as I warn about the dangers of too much talk about narcissists and too much trust in the misinformation and disinformation provided by so many hacks on social media. Let's have a little fun, shall …

Deception and Delusion

October 30th, 2022


An audio version of a video I made for Riverside. 

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The Shame and Blame Game

October 19th, 2022


The narcissist is famous for blame-shifting and projecting his own issues onto others. They will never take accountability for their actions nor will they ever feel guilty for how they harm other people. It's all a …

I Danced with the Devil

October 15th, 2022


Evil is an absence of God. That is all I know of heaven and hell. My husband was not the devil, but the absence of being was profound.

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High School Teens Discuss Abuse

October 15th, 2022


Today, I sit down with several 14 and 15-year-old girls who ask the question: What event has changed your life? The conversation goes toward abuse …


October 12th, 2022


The Cluster B disordered person is hollow, and if you stay too long, they will scoop out all of your being and you will be hollow just like them.

The Narcissist, the Codependent, and the Empath

October 5th, 2022


The Narcissist, the Codependent, and the Empath walk into a bar....

Yeah, no, but really.

Why do they gravitate to one another and have such intense relationships, at least for a while?

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Are We Animals?

September 27th, 2022


Let's ponder what makes us human and what makes an animal an animal and where the narcissist fits in this bigger picture.

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The Narcissistic Sociopath

September 23rd, 2022


Experts agree that many narcissists share common features with other types of personality disorders, especially Cluster B. It is also important to know there are distinguishing characteristics that set them apart. …

Happy Donut

September 15th, 2022


Today, we talk about different kinds of vision. The way we see things. The way the world looks through the eyes of a narcissist. And most importantly, we end with the big suprise. . .  what is HAPPY DONUT?

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September 10th, 2022


This episode comes with a disclaimner and trigger alert that the content, approach, and l;anguage may be too potent for people who are not a place to receive it. Are you stuck, ruminating and longing and craving and …

A Promise of Forever

September 4th, 2022


They will promise you the moon covered in chocolate and dipped in gold, but it is fiction. Even if they belive their own idealized snapshot of you …

Exclusive Guest: ROBERT TORBAY (Quora)

August 11th, 2022


Robert Torbay has attained the esteemed position as a leading expert of Cluster B disorders on the Quora platform. How does he stand apart from others in the field of this study?

Experts in the field typically offer …

Why is the Covert Narcissist So Dangerous?

August 5th, 2022


The covert narcissist is deadly.

They are impulsive, remorseless, reckless, and devoid of emathay or mercy.

Imagine what you could accomplish if you …

The Narcissist is a Harbinger of Doom

July 28th, 2022


You must know, that although a covert pathological narcissist is the pinnacle of sweetness and charm, he (she) is a destroyer. Perhaps the doom and …

Interview: Survivor Myla Morningstar

July 21st, 2022


 Conversation with Myla Morningstar about narcissistic abuse. Essential, illuminating discussion that will help everyone understand what really happens in these ill-fated relationships.

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Deception and Delusion: The Narcissist Defenses

July 19th, 2022


The person with NPD (narcissistic personality disorder) will use deception and delusion to deceive both the people around them as well as themselves. It can have deadly consequences.

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Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse are Battle Ready Soldiers Ready for a World that is Unraveling

July 8th, 2022


The world as we know it is changing. The fabric of societies is unraveling at an alarming pace. But we, the victims/volunteers who were torpedoed and …

The Broken Brain of the Narcissist

July 5th, 2022


The person with NPD has a brain that is so damaged and dysregulated that he/she cannot function like a neurotypical person with a healthy brain. …

Psychic Orgasms with the Demonic Divine

June 30th, 2022


There is more to recovery from narcissistic mindf*ck than traditional psychology or psychiatry can offer. There is a psychic, energetic, vibrational …

Recovering from Narcissistic Trauma While the World Burns

June 26th, 2022


There are so many things happening in the world today that need our attention. Being focused on the narcissist who mistreated you is a waste of time and energy since they can never be repaired. It is time to shift our …

Why I Can't Leave You Behind

June 22nd, 2022


A letter to my x-husband on the three-year anniversary of "the discard."

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When Traditional Therapy Intersects with Energy Work in Narcissistic Abuse Recovery

June 13th, 2022


One size fits all generic intervention at a time when your world has been blasted to smithereens is simply not going to be enough. Traditional treatment and intervention have their place along with prescription support …

Voices in My Head: The Narcissistic Introjects

June 11th, 2022


Long after the narcissist has gone away and reinvented a new persona with someone else, the victim suffers from "introjects" in their head. They cannot tell what is their own thoughts and those of the narcissist that …

The Tears of Benjamin: Why Prayers for the Narcissist Go Unanswered

May 31st, 2022


I am moving cross country this week, wrapping up a school week, and addressing numerous other challenges, but I wanted to stay true to my weekly …

The Voices in My Head

May 19th, 2022


When the narcissist is gone, they leave behind a horrible legacy. They implant three voices in your head that render you captive to intrusive thoughts and a complete hi-jacking of your own inner voice which is replaced …

When the Predator Plays the Victim

May 13th, 2022


The narcissist must always be hero or victim. The covert narcissist loves their pity pot and sits on it much of the time to get supply from others who believe their poor me scenarios and pity play. Make no mistake. They …

The Tears of Benjamin

May 9th, 2022


St. Augustine was saved by his mother Monica who wept for him as she petitioned God. In my marriage, we both wept at different times for different reasons, but my prayers went unanswered. Here is a look at why that may …

Before the Narcissist

April 27th, 2022


In the time after the relationship with a person with NPD, the key to a full recovery and restoration of your agency and power is to retrieve who you …

Addicted to a Narcissist?

April 16th, 2022


The end of a relationship with a narcissist is in no way a regular, typical experience. It involves the whole body, mind, soul energy, identity, …

How Dorothy Got Played by the TinMan

April 7th, 2022


Let's have a little quirky fun that might be amusing. What movie most resembles your life? For me, it's the Wizard of Oz. I've been trapped in that darn place most of my life and forced to deal with a host of wild …

IDGAF & No Contact

March 29th, 2022


These two tactics go together like chicken and biscuits. You can't successfully have one without the other. The goal is to get to the place of IDGAF …

Mental Illness: Family Origins & the Narcissist's Impossible Recovery

March 24th, 2022


What makes people mentally ill? Are they born that way? Created by trauma? Part of family dysfunction? 

It is common knowledge that a malignant narcissist of any stripe and a true primary or secondary psychopath can …

The Narcissist Wants You Dead!

March 14th, 2022


Today's podcast runs a little long but is a deep dive into the reasons behind the narcissist partner wanting you dead at the end of the relationship. Their contempt and hatred can be traced back to a few fundamental …

Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness: "prolonged grief syndrome"

March 8th, 2022


Following narcissistic abuse, it is common for the discarded partner to feel in a Normas sense of loss and despair. The complete annihilation of …

12 Steps to Sobriety After Addiction to a Narcissist

March 2nd, 2022


If you are coming out of a relationship with a narcissist, you are NOT okay. In fact, you are probably in worse shape than you can imagine. You have been ravaged physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, …

Why We Disintegrate After the Narcissist Discard

February 21st, 2022


Why are we so destroyed after a relationship with a narcissist? There are many, many reasons, but today, we will look at the top reasons why we are shattered and unable to get off the ground.

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New World New Normal

February 7th, 2022


Welcome to Season 5!

The world is in trouble. How do narcissism, sociopathy, and psychopathy inform the new crises that threaten our very existence? We are distracted and have fallen victim to social media and …

Neurodivergent or Neurotypical?

January 30th, 2022


In efforts to create a new, gentler language that reflects rehabbed ideas about inclusivity, we take a look at what it means to be neurodivergent. Last episode of season 4.

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What RATS Teach Us About Narcissists

January 20th, 2022


Our furry little rodent friends teach us quite a bit about narcissists. Let's scurry on over to a comfy spot with a nice piece of cheese and learn some valuable things from the RAT.


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It's Time to be a Trooper & Soldier On through the Rough Stuff

January 13th, 2022


The Covid virus has quite a bit in common with your narcissist. They are both potentially deadly, difficult to accept, even harder to recover …

They Won't Believe You

January 5th, 2022


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Today, we talk about how little the world at large understands what has happened in the aftermath of a relationship with a person with …

The Death of Morality & Why the Ethical Slut is a Whore

December 29th, 2021


The moral fabric of our world has not simply been torn, it has been ripped to shreds and turned into party confetti for hedonistic revelers to fornicate upon. The narcissism that runs rampant in a world gorged on porn …

A Cautionary Tale: Sloppy Tacos, Vintage Cars, and Tuaca

December 20th, 2021


2021 is rapidly ending and with it a tough and scary year. But as 2022 opens up and things look increasingly uncertain, we all need to buckle up and dig in to fortify ourselves for the work ahead. With that being said, …

Spiderman: The Narcissist is a Predatory Spider

December 15th, 2021


Narcissists are predators in every sense of the word, and while there are many types of predators out there, the one that resonates with me the most is the spider. There are so many similarities in the way they seduce, …

Memory & the Narcissist: They Don't Remember You

December 5th, 2021


People with NPD are history revisionists. They rewrite the past to fit their narrative and completely erase you as if you never existed. This …

Closure: The Gift the Narcissist Never Gives

November 27th, 2021


Following the relationship with a person with MPD, a feeling of closure is some thing that everyone wants but a few people get. Closure is some thing …

Narcissist Brain Snatchers

November 23rd, 2021


New brain science and neurobiology have found revolutionary conclusions about what happens to the victim of narcissistic abuse. They have discovered …

Why We Stayed

November 13th, 2021


People will not understand why you stayed. But it is not what they think. There are so many complex reasons we stayed with the partner with NPD. We did not choose it. Something greater than ourselves chose it. And now …

The Mortification of the Narcissist

November 6th, 2021


The shocking reaction when people with NPD face the discrepancy between an ideal view of the self and a drastically contrasting realization. They …

A Chilling True Story for Spooky Season

October 31st, 2021


Life with a malignant narcissist is like being at a theme park: fun and excitement until the park closes. After dark, it transforms into a creepy place where the narcissist shows you what is behind all the smoke and …

Not an Empty Vessel Just Waiting to be Filled

October 27th, 2021


Today's episode discusses the idea of needing someone else to complete you, validate you, take care of you. The truth is that if you want to truly …

The Things My Narcissist Taught Me

October 20th, 2021


My narcopath husband was a teacher for nearly 10 years. In fact, we were both teachers and even taught in the same school for a while. As educators, …

Architect of Annihilation or Impetus for Improvement?

October 14th, 2021


Some will say that people with NPD/ASPD are pure destruction. Others will say they are simply a catalyst for change and improvement, an opportunity to finally address the issues within. You decide. Maybe it is both?


October 6th, 2021


The victim of a person with NPD or psychopathy is not a fool. They are a kind, trusting, hopeful soul who probably has a few unresolved issues that …

Polyvagal Theory for Trauma Recovery

September 27th, 2021


This podcast explores polyvagal theory and ways to calm the parasympathetic nervous system which must be regulated in order to avoid mental, …

The Narcissist is Peter Pan

September 15th, 2021


“Stars are beautiful, but they may not take part in anything, they must just look on forever.” Please remember, they are not …

12 Reality Checks for People in Recovery from Relationships with NPD Partners

September 7th, 2021


Recovery is a long road back, but remembering the 12 rules of reality will help you on your way. Pos them, listen to them daily on your way to and …

The Scrambled Brain of the Narcissist

September 7th, 2021


Narcissistic Personality Disorder is a trauma induced neurobiological, physiological brain disorder that impairs the narcissist's ability to lead a …

The Two Stages of Recovery Following Narcissistic Abuse (Full Episode)

September 7th, 2021


Join me for an in-depth look at the two stages of recovery following a relationship with a narcissist, sociopath, psychopath or any combination …

Searching for Solace in the Winter of My Life

August 23rd, 2021


Recovery is tough enough, but when you are older, it is oh so much harder. But don't despair! We can get through this with the right mindset, some …

Never Have I Ever!

July 30th, 2021


So many things about people with NPD are absolutely unbelievable! Never have I ever seen anything like it. Come along and let's take a look at what …

Madness, Magic, and Monsters - The Narcissists Among Us

July 20th, 2021


The person with NPD, ASPD, and psychopathy is a walking contradiction, shape-shifter, chameleon. He/she is part irrational delusion, part magical unicorn, and part Machiavellian. Tou cannot win with these disordered …

The Narcissist Parentifies Their Partner

July 10th, 2021


If you are the partner of a person with NPD, you most likely serve as their proxy parent, allow them to recreate childhood dynamics, and will be the …

Splitting, Dissociation, Confabulation, & Snapshotting: Understanding the Narcissistically Disordered Mind

July 2nd, 2021


Do you want to truly understand what goes on in the mind of a dysregulated, maladapted, personality disordered malignant narcissist? This episode …

NoFux Given

June 22nd, 2021


After two years of trying to disconnect from my narcissistic psychopath, and after much research and testimonials on the subject, I have cleaned six different things you can do to get to the place where you can achieve …

Interview with Sandy: Warrior Against Misogyny & Pornography

June 16th, 2021


Join us as we interview Sandy from Virginia, as we discuss the use of porn and the culture of misogyny that exist in our culture today. Following 12 …

And a Narcissist Shall Lead Them

June 11th, 2021


This episode is a deep dive into the social ramifications of the growing legions of people with narcissistic personality disorder, a SPD, and …

Slam, Bam, F*ck You, Maam

June 6th, 2021


We live in a world that is rapidly shifting. It’s as if we are trying to give birth to some thing and experiencing those pains. Many of the changes or not good ones. And the number of narcissist in our world that pray …

Epigenetics, Imprinting, & Generational Curses

June 2nd, 2021


Did you know that trauma can change your cell structure at the DNA level? Did you know that babies can be programmed in the womb by trauma? A relationship with a narcissist or a psychopath is not one of simply emotional …

To My Replacement

May 26th, 2021


There are indisputable, absolute truths about narcissists and psychopaths and the inevitable outcome of relationships with them. I am compelled to …

Stuck in the Badlands

May 20th, 2021


A break up following a regular typical relationship may take anywhere from a few months two a year or longer. But recovery from a relationship with a …

The Red Ant Hill

May 14th, 2021


The recovery from Narcissistic and Psychopath abuse can be an arduous journey to say the least. I stepped into an ant hill and several tenacious little buggers latched onto my foot. The pain and indignities that …

How to Raise a Narcissist

May 6th, 2021


10 tips on how NOT to raise a narcissist. But first, a look at a decaying culture of decadence and ego that contributes to a society that is a …

The Sky Really is Falling-Recovering from Narcissistic Abuse During an Apocalypse

April 30th, 2021


The wisdom of Henny Penny seems to fit these days. The sky really is falling and is tumbling down all around us. And for those of us who are trying to get back on our geet after a nuclear bomb was dropped on our heads, …

Unpacking Personality Disorders: The Mad, the Bad, & the Sad

April 23rd, 2021


There are three categories of personality disorders on the DSM chart of mental disorders. Named Cluster A, B, and C, we take a look at each category and zoom in on the most talked-about type in recent days. There seems …

The Center Will Not Hold- If You Want to Live, You Must Let Them Die

April 16th, 2021


Following abuse from a disordered individual like a narcissist or psychopath, there comes a tipping point where everything crumbles. It happened so …

Narcissist or Psychopath?

April 7th, 2021


While there are distinguishing features that separate the narcissist from the psychopath, there are many overlapping common traits much like in a Venn Diagram. Not all people with narcissistic personality disorder are …

Interview with Survivor Tina

April 4th, 2021


As Survivor Tina came to terms with narcissism and realized the abuse she was enduring, she was finally able to leave the relationship. Healing for Tina has turned into a passion to create jewelry for Survivors. “11:11, …

Love Song for a Sea Slug

March 28th, 2021


Today, we have a little fun with the comparison of a sea creature who can amputate parts of their own body and re-generate a new improved version in its place. I expressed my desire to possess the same skill in …


March 25th, 2021


The condition of being naked is a powerful and complex idea. Metaphorically it can mean a sense of vulnerability or honesty. On another level it can …

Forgive Them for They Know Not What They Do

March 16th, 2021


Forgiveness is a tricky thing. It is complicated, and for a time, it may be completely out of reach. Can we hold people responsible for their sins …

When the Sweetness is Poison

March 6th, 2021


What happens when sweetness turns out to be poison? Sweetness is a highly valued quality in our world, and the narcopath has adapted, assimilated, and learned how to be sweet as cherry pie with ice cream on top.

After a …

Drowning in an Inch of Water: Learned Helplessness

February 26th, 2021


Learned helplessness paralyzes recovery after abuse from a Cluster B partner. It is a dynamic that happens slowly over the course of a relationship with a narcopath that is a total erosion of your ability to be a …

When Murder is Your Best Option

February 20th, 2021


The narcissist psychopath is a murderer, and more importantly, they have already murdered themselves. The only way you can be free is to ceremoniously "kill" them (not literally in real life). One good kill deserves …

Sex and the Narcissistic Psychopath

February 6th, 2021


The narcopath uses sex to get supply (fuel) and to control. They do not see you as a human being but as an object and as a way to get what they need. …

When I am Alone, I Disappear

January 31st, 2021


Childhood trauma can create a toxic script and faulty programming that follow that child forever. We tend to reconstruct dynamics in adulthood that …

The Boggy Marshes and the Howling Wilderness

January 25th, 2021


You have loved a narcissist or sociopath. 

You have been discarded. 

Annihilated. Cast aside. Jettisoned. Thrown away. Expelled. Catapulted. …

The Smirk, the Stare, the Sulk & the Silence

January 21st, 2021


Disordered individuals with Cluster B disorders like narcissistic personality disorder (NPD), anti-social personality disorder (sociopaths), psychopaths, and borderlines (BPD) all have overlapping characteristics that …

Friending My Inner Child

January 15th, 2021


When recovering from narcissistic (or sociopathic/psychopathic) abuse, it is important at some point to turn away from the dysregulated partner and …

Your Crucifixion is the Narcissist’s Resurrection

December 28th, 2020


Why are you must die for them. A partnership with a personality disordered narcissist always has an expiration date. The only way that it can end is with your death, either metaphorically or literally. We will discuss …

All I Want for Christmas. . . The Three Must Have's of the Narcissist

December 24th, 2020


What are the three things that all narcissists )NPD) and sociopaths (ASPD) MUST have in order to survive?
1. Fuel
2. {erks & Benefits
3. Character Traits


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Feeding the Starving Child Within

December 13th, 2020


When we understand the insatiable hunger within, we can achieve wholeness. When we befriend our inner child and nourish him/her, we can achieve …

No Contact & Addiction with Teahna

December 5th, 2020


There are many reasons why establishing a successful no contact regime following trauma from a relationship with a narcissist or sociopath, but it is …

Healing the Whole Person with Teahna

December 3rd, 2020


Teahna is my guest today as we discuss the different parts of the person that must heal after the trauma and grief following abuse from a …

They Always Wear a Mask

December 1st, 2020


The narcopath always wears an elaborate and well-constructed mask, yet like Darth Vader, there is nothing with a shriveled, quivering, gelatinous pile of goo at the core--destroyed long ago by the ones who were supposed …

I Hate Everything About You!

November 18th, 2020


Contempt is a primary feature in the narcissistic cycle of abuse. The disordered individual must demonize and shift the blame to their partner so they can play the victim and walk away with their good-guy image intact. …

It Ends with a BANG, Not a Whimper

November 9th, 2020


This is how the world ends with a narcissistic sociopath. It comes out of nowhere. You don't know what hit you. And the contempt, hatred, and murderous cruelty are unbelievable. You did nothing wrong, yet they demonize …


October 26th, 2020


Following abuse from a person with a personality disorder like the narcissist or sociopath, the abuse often continues. Whether you escaped or they …

Neurolinguistic Programming: A Popular Narcissistic Tool

October 19th, 2020


NLP is a type of clever conditioning often used by the personality disordered cadre of dysregulated individuals.


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Sex Addiction is the Somatic Narcissist's Drug of Choice

October 5th, 2020


The somatic narcissist weaponizes his body, and sex addiction often manifests as comorbidity. It is a dangerous duo, as deadly as taking your partner by the hand and tumbling headfirst into the Grand Canyon.


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If You’re Happy and You Know It

September 25th, 2020


The Narcopath believes that if they are happy, the whole world should sing along.


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Narcopath: False Self & False God

September 21st, 2020


The narcopath manufactures a false self in order to survive unbearable trauma and abuse in their early years, and they also create a false belief that they are their own God as they worship their own ego and their own …

I Left My Heart in San Francisco

September 11th, 2020


I married a covert somatic mid-range narcissist and stayed with him for 16 years while the world burned down around me. I loved him without boundaries and San Francisco became our Camelot. I had planned to go there my …

Are You My Mother?

August 30th, 2020


Narcissists unconsciously seek to heal the mother wound. The results are often tragic for everyone.

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August 23rd, 2020


Recovery following abuse by a personality disordered individual such as the narcissist or psychopath can be a long and arduous process. Many …

The Perfect Pandemic Partner

August 16th, 2020


What if the perfect pandemic isn’t who you’re hoping for? What if it is someone you really need to get to know. Spend some quality time. Show them love and kindness. Look in the mirror. It’s time to do the work to get …

The Cruelest Cuts are the Deepest

August 14th, 2020


People with personality disorders like the narcissist may seem too good to be true when they are feeding off of your delicious fuel. But at some point, it ends, and you run dry. Overnight, they become savage butchers …

REBORN: The Choice to Live or Die After Narcissistic Abuse

August 7th, 2020


Following a relationship with a narcissist or psychopath, there is trauma that forces you to decide. You can allow the former self to die and accept …

The Jezebel Spirit & Demonic Influence in the Empty Core of a Narcissist

July 30th, 2020


The narcissist is an empty vessel and must fill the emptiness with fuel from external sources. This moral deficiency and "lack of being" constitutes …


July 26th, 2020


The traumatic relational experience that causes recovery from narcissistic abuse to be so difficult can be overcome by channeling the power of love …

Flippin' the Script with Rob Brown

July 26th, 2020


Rob Brown is my guest today from the Lonestar Music Fest podcast series and flips the script by interviewing me. We discuss N.A.R.C. and Narc Troopers including the mission and the history of the work.

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The Gentleman Narcissist and the Blind Man on the Beach

July 18th, 2020


Some types of narcissists weaponize courtesy, charm, and charisma to achieve their single-minded goal of receiving fuel in the form of attention, adoration, validation, etc... In many ways, they are like the blind man …

Nihilism and Narcissism

July 15th, 2020


Nihilists believe that life has no true meaning or purpose, there is no true moral imperative, and that God does not exist. The narcissist believes that meaning is what they design, there is no right or wrong or moral …

Guided GROUNDING Meditation-Elements & Energy

July 14th, 2020


Using the elements to ground yourself during times of stress, anxiety, or sadness has been a common practice that spans all times and cultures. This …

Guided Healing Meditation- LOVE

July 10th, 2020


Love is everything. When healing from trauma, PTSD, abandonment, addiction, insomnia, attachment issues, emotional dysregulation, and excessive …

Killing Me Softly

July 6th, 2020


The "trauma brain" is dysregulated and a tremendous source of pain and despair following abuse from a Cluster B disordered partner. The mind and the …

TRiPpiN BaLLs & MAgiCaL ThiNkIng

July 5th, 2020


Narcissists , sociopaths, and psychopaths often have co-morbidities such as addiction, and one of the most common is drug addiction. They love to …

Guided Meditation for Healing Wounded Inner Child & Balancing Energy

July 1st, 2020


The first few 7-8 minutes offer an explanation on the benefits of meditation following emotional trauma and abuse, and the last 20 minutes offers a …

Lizard Brain and Monkey Madness

June 29th, 2020


Understanding the brain is key to recovery following emotional and psychological trauma following a relationship with a narcissist, sociopath, or …

Through the Valley of the Shadow of Death: A survivor's journey after narcissistic abuse

June 18th, 2020


June 18th is the 1-year anniversary of the "discard'" when my ex-husband with narcissistic personality disorder kicked me to the curb. I have suffered the worst year of my life and am actually a bit surprised that I …

Interview with ST Rappaport: Healing the Inner Child with CJEA

June 12th, 2020


ST Rappaport is Relationship Photographer, Creative Journal Expressive Arts Coach, founder of Genius Relationships and host of the LifePix Relationships Podcast. After observing, listening, and connecting with so many …

3 Things That Will Kill You: COVID-19, Social Injustice & Racism, and the Predatory Narcissist

June 10th, 2020


The world is a dangerous place. In the summer of 2020, there are several things that could actually kill you. The global pandemic is worsening in …

The Seduction: A Glittery, Shimmering, Sparkling Mirage

June 6th, 2020


A mirage is not real, and neither is the narcissist. The 3 stages of narcissistic abuse are idealization, devaluation, and discard. In the first …

Interview with Survivor Thriver Shane from Phillip Island-Victoria, Australia

June 2nd, 2020


Interview with guest Shane from the land down under with the ocean at his doorstep and the infamous annual penguin parade. His experience in a long marriage with a partner suffering from NPD illustrates how narcissism …

It Was Never Real

May 29th, 2020


People with narcissistic personality disorder create a false self and live in an illusion, an imaginary world filled with magical thinking. They are incapable of authenticity, intimacy, and real human emotions. They are …

Unpack the Trauma Stored in Your Body

May 25th, 2020


Trauma is not just a mental or emotional phenomenon. It can be stored in the body over years, even decades. Understand how it works and how to release it so you can have freedom from repetitive destructive patterns. It …

The Art of Self-Mutilation After Traumatic Abuse

May 22nd, 2020


The road to recovery after a relationship ends with a narcissist or psychopath is filled with crazy ups and downs, victories and defeats. People often say, "Healing is not linear." I know I have battled with my best …

In Sickness and Health: No! The Narcissist Will Not Take Care of You

May 18th, 2020


People with personality disorders cannot take care of others when they become sick or injured or acquire a disability. Let's explore the top 10 …

Rising to Change: COVID-19 and the Narcissist

May 8th, 2020


We are witnessing an epic opportunity to let go of a toxic past and embrace a new reality that is healthier and holds more promise and potential than …

Interview with Survivor Thriver Teahna- priestess, author, alchemist, and author

May 4th, 2020


Teahna is a survivor of narcissistic abuse, an energy worker, and a healing facilitator. Coming to us originally from California and most recently from Maui, Hawaii, Teahna brings her experience and gifts to the …

A Heapin' Helpin' of Dehumanizing Discard with a Side of Soul Shred

April 27th, 2020


Being discarded by a partner with a personality disorder like narcissism or psychopathy is a degrading and humiliating experience that will take …

Interview with Survivor Stephanie-Healing Facilitator and Spiritual Coach

April 25th, 2020


Welcome, Stephanie from Austin, Texas. You may contact her at Cactus Bloom Healing Alternative & Holistic Health Service on Facebook or …

Interview with Survivor Misty DV Advocate

April 24th, 2020


Misty is a survivor of domestic abuse and advocates for women who are victims of domestic violence. Doing outreach from her home in Alabama, we can …

Lucifer Captured Him, Then Came After Me

April 19th, 2020


The relationship between demonic influence and mentally disordered individuals has been a subject of exploration for years. My husband allowed dark forces to come in, not consciously choosing it, but by passively …


April 13th, 2020


My narcopath Ex-Husband and I share a bond that enables us to share energy and thoughts with over 1000 miles between us. I am an empath and pick up …

"Would You Like a SMEAR on that Sh*t Sandwich?"

April 6th, 2020


The smear is the inevitable follow-up to the discard at the end of a relationship with a narcissist/sociopath/psychopath. They use it to blame shift …

Empath Supernova & Narcissist Black Hole

April 1st, 2020


The parallels between an empath and a supernova are undeniable. A comparison of the life of a star to that of an empath who is in love with a person with a personality disorder.

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When the World Ends -

March 31st, 2020


We all have thought about this at one time or another. Who do we want beside us if the world were coming to an end? My husband unexpectedly discarded me nine months ago. It is March 31, 2020, and I face the current …

Contagion! Narc Cooties

March 21st, 2020


The nasty little buggers that linger after narcissistic abuse are deeply embedded in every nook and crannie, and it will require a strong pesticide …

Prayer and Despair - Just Look Up

March 19th, 2020


Regardless of the source of your pain whether it comes from a relationship with an abusive and dysregulated partner or loss and fear from the …

Love in the Time of COVID-19

March 15th, 2020


While life-threatening events can bind people together, for those who are recently single and recovering from relationship trauma, a crisis and …

Trauma Bonding: The Tie the Breaks Us

March 3rd, 2020


An intimate look at my story and the trauma bonding that has kept me tethered to my covert narcissist ex-husband for the past nine months since he suddenly discarded me. Perhaps my experience and insight can give …

What Doesn't Serve You Makes You a Better Person

February 26th, 2020


People are so hung up om what serves them and so determined to get rid of anything that does not "serve them." What a ridiculous and shallow way to …

Wounding, Cold Fury, & Reimagining Life After the Narcissist

February 23rd, 2020


Narcissistic injury inevitably happens and results in cold fury experienced by the covert narcissist, but their final discard allows survivors the …

The Pink Cloud Effect

February 22nd, 2020


I am a love junkie. And on the road to recovery, I am on the lookout for pink clouds that will impede my sobriety and hinder my progress. Why the gritty inner work is necessary, even when the pink frothy, fluffy …

Interview with Survivor Thriver Josh

February 18th, 2020


What is it like to be raised by a father with a narcissistic personality disorder, and how can someone overcome childhood wounding to become a whole …

Feast and Famine: A Fractured Fairy Tale

February 11th, 2020


You were famished, and I fed you. You grew strong, then you devoured me.

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Where is My Mind? A Look Inside the Mind of a Narcissist

February 1st, 2020


Ever wonder what is going on inside the head of a narcissist or sociopath? The way their brain interacts with the world around them is both sublime and horrific. They are both gifted exceptional intuitive humans who …

Healing Practices

January 25th, 2020


I have provided 12 suggestions to help ypu heal from a narcassistic relationship. I hope you find something helpful to you.


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How to Not Die of a Broken Heart

January 25th, 2020


After a relationship with a cluster B individual (narcopath- narcissist-sociopath), the road back to wholeness and wellness is treacherous and …

Interview with Survivor Thriver Amy

January 21st, 2020


Today we talk to Amy in Austin, Texas who shares her experience with divorce court and the aftermath following the final end of her 26-year marriage …

It’s All in Your Head

January 17th, 2020


Brain chemistry plays an enormous role in addiction, trauma bonding, and relationships with a person with narcissistic personality disorder. Learning …

New Decade-Old Issues: Intentions to Manifest Healing in 2020

January 13th, 2020


We made it to a new decade of hope and healing for ourselves and the planet. In the spirit of new beginnings, I share 5 intentions I bring forward to 2020. Creating the best version of ourselves possible is no easy …

Reality, check under the hood.

January 9th, 2020


People mean well, but you just can't tell them the truth. Admitting the truth about a relationship with a NARC is like admitting your car is out of oil.


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January 9th, 2020


This episode offers a tool for self healing brought to you by B.Emery. It is a tool that she developed on her healing journey. It brings awareness to …

The Unsent Letter

January 7th, 2020


B. Emery shares a recovery technique that enables individuals recovering from abuse to lay their pain to rest. The letter to the offender is written for therapeutic benefit but never actually sent. It worked for her, so …

From Victim to Survivor to Thriver: Understanding Narcissistic Recovery

January 6th, 2020


Recovering from narcissistic abuse is no easy task. It is important to move through the phases of healing so that you do not become stuck and fail to move on and be free from the pain. It is possible to claim survivor …

What I Learned About Trauma Recovery from the Anti-Hero, Jessica Jones

January 5th, 2020


Help comes from the most unexpected places. In today's episode, we look at how mind mapping and other techniques can be used to override your brain in ways that can help subdue the ever-present anxiety and potential …

Gettin' Jiggy with It When You're Still Stuck on Mr. Wrong

January 4th, 2020


At what point after a breakup do you try to move on with another partner? Will physical intimacy help you detach from the one who broke you when you just can't seem to let them go? This episode explores the idea that we …

Butter, Burn, and Blast

January 3rd, 2020


There are cyclical patterns in narcissistic abuse: ideation or love-bombing, devaluation, and discard. Without exception, the cycles happen at varying speeds from mere weeks up to decades depending on what type of …

20 Affirmations for 2020

January 1st, 2020


Welcome to 2020!

My new year's gift to you is 20 affirmations to bring in a new decade of health and happiness. Listen to them as reminders and reassurance as often as you are so compelled. And if you think of new …

Welcome to N.A.R.C. - Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators

December 31st, 2019


Introduction to N.A.R.C. Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators.

 P. Pesqueda and collaborator B. Emery will take you on a weekly journey to …

The Covert Narcissist and How They Differ from Other Cluster B Personality Disordered individuals

December 31st, 2019


The covert narcissist is a unique individual who is not like a neuro-typical person nor are they like any other narcissistic personality disordered individual. They are often the most insidious and dangerous of all …

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