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"Remarkable" - Psychology Today"A vital, compassionate gem that fills a desperate and under-addressed need in our society." - Esquire "A perversely safe place in which he and his guests talk about their fears, addictions and traumatic childhoods." - NY Times"Gilmartin makes a conscious effort to exp… read more

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#683 Sexual Anorexia - Dale

February 16th, 2024


Dale joins Paul to discuss her experience with social, emotional, and sexual anorexia. She opens up about how she’s working on intimacy and …

#682 Anger - Ron Placone

February 9th, 2024


Ron Placone is a comedian and writer with anger issues. He opens up about how he realized his anger was a problem and how he works to psychologically …

#681 Topaz Adizes - Human Connection

February 2nd, 2024


Topaz Adizes (@the_skindeep) is a filmmaker and producer of the interactive documentary, {THE AND}. For years, he has studied the effect that holding …

#680 - Social Work On Skid Row & More - Kaylee Powers

January 26th, 2024


Kaylee Powers is a substance abuse counselor who has worked with various populations, including people who live on Skid Row in Los Angeles. She talks …

#679 Postpartum Psychosis & Bipolar 1 - Heather Gonzales

January 19th, 2024


Heather Gonzales is a mental health advocate with a specific focus on postpartum psychosis. Heather was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 as a teenager and, …

#678 Grief & Peace - Levi Meaden

January 12th, 2024


Levi Meaden (@Levi_Meaden) is a friend of Paul’s from his support group and he joins Paul to share about his struggles around the death of his …

#677 Dissociative Identity Disorder - Holly Crumpler

January 5th, 2024


Holly Crumpler joins Paul to talk about living with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). Holly shares her journey to being diagnosed with DID, how …

#676 Scarcity Brain - Michael Easter

December 29th, 2023


Michael Easter (@Michael_Easter) is a Professor of Journalism at UNLV who joins Paul to discuss the topic of his new book, Scarcity Brain: Fix Your …

#675 Codependency (Including Her Own) - Dr Sarah Michaud

December 22nd, 2023


Dr. Sarah Michaud is an expert in codependency–in large part because she has dealt with it herself. She discusses how she works through her codependent tendencies. She also discusses her new book Co-Crazy: One …

#674 Spiraling - Leah Rudick

December 15th, 2023


Leah Rudick @Leah_Rudick is a stand-up comedian and sketch performer. She opens up to Paul about the anxiety she’s carried since childhood and her …

#673 Escaping A Religious Cult - Katie Love

December 8th, 2023


Katie Love @KatieLoveWriter is a comedian and author who bares all in this episode. She opens up about the death of her mother when she was young, …

#672 Trust Issues - Gianmarco Soresi

December 1st, 2023


Gianmarco Soresi @GianmarcoSoresi is a stand-up comedian, actor, and podcast host (The Downside). He reflects on what it’s like to look back on your childhood and realize that not everything was as it seemed. He talks …

Why I No Longer Endorse BetterHelp

December 1st, 2023


Paul reads allegations by the Federal Trade Commission about the business practices of BetterHelp and how they allegedly misused customer's private …

#671 LGBTQ+ Therapists - LMFT Renae Johnson

November 24th, 2023


Renae Johnson is a MIHH listener and a therapist who specializes in LGBTQ+ patients. They talk about what brought them to this work, which includes discovering their own gender fluidity, struggling with their religious …

#670 BDSM And Trauma - LMFT Nicoletta Heidegger

November 17th, 2023


Nicoletta Heidegger is an LMFT who focuses on human sexuality and BDSM for healing. She talks about how we can often deal with our trauma by …

#669 Standing Up For Yourself - Em Schulz

November 10th, 2023


Em Schulz (@TheEmSchulz) is a writer, podcast host (And That’s Why We Drink, Ritual), and paranormal aficionado. Em unpacks their struggles with …

#668 Leslie Winick - The Interesting, Invisible Woman

November 3rd, 2023


Leslie Winick is an MIHH listener who joins Paul to talk about what it feels like, as an older woman, when you start to become invisible to others. …

#667 Regulating Intense Emotions - Elyse Cizek

October 27th, 2023


Elyse Cizek is a writer and a musician who opens up about her journey of self-reflection and change, what it’s been like living with BPD, and how she manages relationships in her life given her diagnosis. She also …

#666 Darkest Surveys Ever

October 20th, 2023


40 minutes of some of the darkest surveys listeners have ever filled out. No guest. No interview. No theme music. A few have been read on-air …

#665 Aparna Nancherla Returns - Imposter Syndrome

October 13th, 2023


Aparna Nancherla @Aparnapkin is a comedian, writer, and actor (Mythic Quest, Crashing) and today she joins Paul to discuss her new book Unreliable …

Addressing Therapist Burnout: Introducing SimplePractice

October 10th, 2023


This interview is a paid advertisement by SimplePractice, an administrative software for therapists to help reduce time spent doing paperwork, …

#664 Buried Trauma & Panic Attacks - Stevie C

October 6th, 2023


Paul’s support group friend Stevie C shares about growing up in a violent and verbally abusive environment, learning to manage his temper, and …

#663 The Quietly Suffering Newscaster - Tiffany Carter

September 29th, 2023


Tiffany Carter is a former newscaster and current podcast host (Project Me with Tiffany Carter on IG @ProjectMe_With_Tiffany) and mental health advocate. She opens up about her unpredictable and narcissistic mother, the …

#662 Family Silence - Ruth Golden

September 22nd, 2023


Ruth Golden is a documentary filmmaker and suicide prevention activist who is in the process of creating a film about her own family. The Silent …

#661 Non-Binary & Non-Monogamous - Jessi Kneeland Returns

September 15th, 2023


Jessi Kneeland (@JessiKneeland) is a body image coach who gets real about their own issues and what brought them to this work. In this episode, Jessi's second visit to the podcast, they talk about self-perception as …

#660 Releasing Trauma - Felina Danalis

September 8th, 2023


Felina Danalis is a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner and she joins Paul for what is, essentially, an intro to what somatic experiencing is, how it …

#659 Kyle Kinane - Unpacking My Sh*t

September 1st, 2023


Kyle Kinane is a standup comedian and recovering “party guy” who’s started doing some work on himself and his relationships. He talks about growing out of the party scene, shifting his perspectives, and getting over …

#658 Childhood Trauma & Self-Perception - Raquel

August 25th, 2023


Paul met Raquel in a group therapy session and just had to hear more of her story. She is an immigrant from El Salvador who is confronting her …

#656 Josh Peck Returns

August 11th, 2023


Josh Peck is an actor (Oppenheimer, Drake & Josh, How I Met Your Father) and podcast host (Good Guys) as well as an author (Happy People Are Annoying). This is Josh’s second visit to the podcast and this time he …

#655 Being Misgendered By A Parent - Eddie

August 4th, 2023


This week’s guest is Eddie, someone who wants to share their rare story in the hopes that it will offer a light to others. Eddie was raised as a boy by her father and as a girl by her mother. She unpacks how a lifetime …

#654 Moby - The Cult of More & Loneliness

July 28th, 2023


Paul sits down with musician and animal-rights activist Moby and his podcasting partner Lindsay to talk about the “cult of more” and the illusion of …

#653 Child of Mixed Marriage - Cat Alvarado

July 21st, 2023


Cat Alvarado @theCatAlvarado is a standup comedian and activist who grew up with a white father and a Latina mother—who fled the civil war in Nicaragua. She talks about what it was like to grow up mixed race and with a …

#652 Grief - Marc Maron

July 14th, 2023


Marc Maron is an actor, standup comedian, and podcast host (WTF). In early 2020, his partner, Lynn Shelton, died suddenly. He joins Paul to talk …

#651 The Psychology of Spending/Saving - Christine Lane

July 7th, 2023


Christine Lane is an Accredited Financial Counselor who works at the intersection of money and psychology. She joins Paul to talk about the mental …

#650 Food, Family & Resentments - Will Sasso

June 30th, 2023


Will Sasso (@WillSasso) is an actor (MAD TV, The Three Stooges), comedian, and podcaster. He talks with Paul about his relationship with food, the …

#649 Bipolar, Mania & Motherhood - Amelia Zachry

June 23rd, 2023


Amelia Zachry (@BrownGirlCrazyWorld) is an author and mental health advocate. She shares her experience with a Bipolar 2 diagnosis and how she talks …

#648 Depression & Responsibilities - Chris Gethard Returns

June 16th, 2023


Chris Gethard (aka @ChrisGeth and @ChrisGethard) is a comedian, writer, and podcast host (Beautiful Anonymous) who talks openly about managing his …

#647 Going No-Contact With A Parent - Rebecca D Returns

June 9th, 2023


Rebecca D returns to the podcast to talk about going no-contact with her mom and reflects on moments in her childhood that she didn’t realize were …

#646 When A Parent Has Alzheimer's - Steph Jagger

June 2nd, 2023


Steph Jagger joins Paul to discuss the grief of loving someone with dementia. She also shares the small moments of beauty that can sometimes come out …

#645 - A Life Of Crime - Miller

May 26th, 2023


Miller is one one of Paul’s support group friends. He joins Paul to talk about being on the other side of a chaotic life of crime. After having spent …

#644 Double Depression - Writer/Critic Bethanne Patrick

May 19th, 2023


Bethanne Patrick is a writer, literary critic, and podcast host (Missing Pages). She talks about her struggles with double depression, her experiences with being a supportive caretaker, and her life as a voracious …

#643 Body Image & Eating Disorders - Jenny Zigrino

May 12th, 2023


Jenny Zigrino (@JennyZigrino) is a standup comedian from Minnesota who was put on a diet at the age of 5. She talks about how her parents’ reaction to her weight shaped her self-image, how she overcame her eating …

#642 Institutionalized As A Teenager - Emi Nietfeld

May 5th, 2023


Emi Nietfeld (@EmiNietfeld) is a writer and the author of the book Acceptance, a memoir of her journey through foster care, homelessness, and, eventually, to Harvard. She opens up about a childhood where she was often …

#641 A "Holy Sh*t" Childhood - Kristine Kimmel

April 28th, 2023


Kristine Kimmel is a writer and a host of the How To Survive podcast (@PodHowToSurvive). She opens up about how therapy saved her marriage and what it’s like parenting teenage twins. She also shares some unbelievable …

#640 Remembering Charlie King

April 21st, 2023


A tribute/re-airing for Paul’s friend Charlie who passed away last week after years of battling his demons. Charlie led an astoundingly painful life …

#639 Drawn To The Dark Side - Michelle E

April 14th, 2023


Michelle E. is the daughter of Paul’s best childhood friend. Michelle opens up about her struggles with self-worth, her desire to feel seen and …

#638 Addicted To Drama - Dr. Scott Lyons

April 7th, 2023


Dr. Scott Lyons (@DrScottLyons) is a holistic psychologist, educator, author, and a renowned body-based trauma expert. Scott is the creator of The …

#637 Career Anxiety/Satisfaction - Ashley Stahl

March 31st, 2023


Ashley Stahl (@AshleyStahl) is a counterterrorism professional turned career coach, the author of the bestselling book, You Turn: Get Unstuck, Discover Your Direction, Design Your Dream Career, and the host of the You …

#636 Your Brain On Art - Ivy Ross & Susan Magsamen

March 24th, 2023


Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross join Paul to discuss their new book Your Brain on Art. They share the science behind how our brains and bodies transform …

#635 The Brain/Gut Connection - Dr Will Cole

March 17th, 2023


Dr. Will Cole (@DrWillCole) joins Paul to discuss the gut-brain connection and the impact that inflammation can have on all areas of our health. Dr. …

#634 Authenticity - Dr Carolyn Kurle

March 10th, 2023


Dr. Carolyn Kurle is a Biology Professor at UC San Diego. When she noticed that her students were coming to her for guidance about their mental and …

#633 - Romance & Mental Illness - Allison Raskin

March 3rd, 2023


Allison (@AllisonRaskin & @EmotionalSupportLady) opens up about her struggles with contamination OCD, sensory issues with clothing, anxiety, …

#632 "Good" vs "Bad" Perfectionism - Katherine Morgan Schafler

February 24th, 2023


Katherine Morgan Schafler is a therapist and an author who studies perfectionism. She talks about healthy vs maladaptive perfectionism and the ways …

#631 Boundaries W/Parents - Kelly Collette

February 17th, 2023


Kelly Collette is a comedian, writer, artist, and an avid listener of the podcast. She opens up about going low contact with both of her parents and …

#630 Wishing Your Family Would Change

February 10th, 2023


Why, oh why would you choose to go on vacation with your family when every other time it's been a train wreck? Rich, one of Paul’s support group …

#629 Paul's Mentor Bill

February 3rd, 2023


Yes Bill W. is his real name and he has been helping Paul for 19 years; inspiring him, helping him, making him laugh and giving him the truth when he …

#628 Losing Her Preteen To Suicide - Kathleen Hammond

January 27th, 2023


Kathleen Hammond is a mother who lost her child. She sits down with Paul to talk about childhood bullying, a parent’s perspective on losing a child …

#627 Give A F*ck Actually - Dr Alex Wills

January 20th, 2023


Dr. Alex Wills is a psychiatrist & therapist who focuses on the importance of ‘radical emotional acceptance’. He discusses how we can accept our emotions and what happens when we ignore them. Be sure to check out …

#626 The Science Of A Good Life - Dr Robert Waldinger

January 13th, 2023


Dr. Robert Waldinger is a psychiatrist & a professor at Harvard Medical School who worked on an 85-year long study on what it takes to have a …

#625 The Black Sheep - Evan Schad

January 6th, 2023


Paul’s friend (@Evan_Schad) shares about being the black sheep of the family (and having a “perfect” sibling) and eventually being sent to boarding …

#624 Best Of: Perfectionism - Meghan Daum

December 30th, 2022


Originally recorded in 2011, the critically-acclaimed author of 6 books (most recently The Problem With Everything), columnist and blogger …

#623 Best Of - Kerri Kenney-Silver - Codependence

December 23rd, 2022


Originally recorded in 2012 and voted a listener favorite, Kerri (@KerriKenneySilver @KerriKenney) is a comedian/actor/musician. She opens up about her childhood, the impact of her parents’ divorce, her obsessive …

#622 Best Of - OG Iranian Freedom Fighter Nadereh Fanaeian

December 16th, 2022


Originally recorded and aired in 2011 Nadereh’s story is sadly all too timely today. Nadereh (@NaderehShe) is a former Marxist revolutionary who fled …

#621 Surviving Depression Hell - Liz E

December 9th, 2022


Paul's support group friend is a 44-year-old single mom whose meds stopped working and before finding another one that worked, spiraled into a …

#620 Anonymous Confessions 2

December 2nd, 2022


Paul reads listener's surveys describing their demons, dreams, failures, accomplishments, resentments and loves.

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#619 Neal Brennan's Horrifying DMT Ride

November 25th, 2022


Comedian Neal Brennan (@NealBrennan) shares about his experiences with 5-MeO-DMT, ayahuasca, meds, TMS, and various modes of talk therapy. He also …

#618 What Is A "Good Asian Son"? - Chris Chou

November 18th, 2022


Chris Chou is one of Paul’s closest friends and a member of his support group. Chris shares what it was like moving to the U.S. as a child and how …

#617 Anger & Trauma - Thomas Hayes

November 11th, 2022


Thomas Hayes is a modern furniture designer and a friend of Paul’s. He opens up about the emotional incest, violence, and sexual abuse he experienced …

#616 Postpartum Bipolar w/Psychosis - Jessica Ekhoff

November 4th, 2022


Jessica Ekhoff is an attorney who, after giving birth to her first child, was diagnosed with postpartum bipolar. She talks about her psychosis which …

#615 - Science Of Stuck - Britt Frank

October 28th, 2022


Britt Frank is a therapist, educator, trauma specialist, and the author of the book The Science of Stuck. She opens up about her addictions, her …

#614 Self-Loathing - Jerry Stahl Returns

October 21st, 2022


Jerry Stahl (@SomeJerryStahl) is a novelist and screenwriter working through his own worries, self-sabotage, and depression. He opens up about addiction and his current work with EMDR. He also reads an excerpt from his …

#613 People Pleasing & Panic Attacks - Liz Miele

October 14th, 2022


Standup comedian Liz Miele (@LizMiele) opens up about panic attacks, people pleasing, her family history of mental illness–and how setting boundaries has changed everything. Be sure to check out her new standup special,

#612 Meaning & Purpose - Eric Zimmer

October 7th, 2022


Eric Zimmer(@oneyoufeed) is a Behavior Coach and the host of the podcast, The One You Feed. He shares his story of recovery from heroin addiction & homelessness and how he finally decided to take the steps needed to …

#611 Money & Emotions - Graham Elwood

September 30th, 2022


Graham Elwood (@GrahamElwood) is a comedian and Paul’s long-time friend. He opens up about his struggles with debt and using shopping as a means of …

#610 Quality & Types of Therapy - Kati Morton LMFT

September 23rd, 2022


Author and LMFT Kati Morton (@KatiMorton) joins Paul for an overview of therapy. She goes over the different types of therapists as well as the …

#609 Attacked By Jan 6 Mob - Winston Pingeon

September 16th, 2022


Former Capitol Police Officer Winston Pingeon opens up about the chaos and the trauma of the insurrection on January 6th, 2021. He also shares his …

#608 BiPolar - Kimi Culp

September 9th, 2022


Kimi Culp is a TV and film producer and the host of the podcast, All The Wiser (@AllTheWiserPod) She opens up about her own bipolar diagnosis as well …

#607 Adoption, Autism, BPD - Lacey

September 2nd, 2022


Lacey was adopted by an emotionally abusive family at the age of two. She shares her experience with that pain as well as how she navigates living with autism, ADHD, and BPD. She also shares her story of life in the …

#606 Burnout or Depression? Keith Miller LCSW

August 26th, 2022


Keith Miller is a clinical social worker, author, and podcaster (The Soul of Life Show). He shares about caregiver burnout, identifying depression, …

#605 Anonymous Confessions

August 19th, 2022


Paul reads surveys filled out by listeners (anonymously) sharing the deepest parts of themselves; their struggles, victories, fears, loves, traumas, …

#604 Anxiety & PTSD - Michael Brose

August 12th, 2022


Michael Brose is a former police officer turned recovery counselor. He’s also one of Paul’s support group friends. He talks about what led him to …

#603 - Bittersweetness - Susan Cain

August 5th, 2022


Susan Cain is a best-selling author and someone who thinks very deliberately about emotions. She sits down with Paul and shares her journey from …

#602 Best Of - Schizophrenia - Dr Elyn Saks

July 29th, 2022


Originally aired in 2015. The USC professor of law, psychiatry and psychology (in addition to a PhD in Psychoanalysis) talks about her history of …

#601 Best Of - Conflict - Randy Olea

July 22nd, 2022


Originally aired in 2013. A father/brother figure to Paul, the high-school teacher reflects on his Mexican heritage, violent upbringing, tour in …

#600 Best Of - Baron Vaughn

July 15th, 2022


Originally aired in 2013, the actor/comedian (Conan, Jimmy Fallon, Comedy Central) talks about his struggle to feel “authentically black” without betraying who he is, the state of comedy in the black community, honing …

#599 Best Of - Pedophile Ring Survivor - Anneke Lucas

July 8th, 2022


Originally aired in 2015. Sold by her mother to a pedophile ring led by powerful politicians and aristocrats in her native Belgium, Anneke’s story is …

#598 - Rescuing - Dr. Edward Shahrokh

July 1st, 2022


Dr. Edward Shahrokh is Paul’s support group friend who also happens to be a psychologist. He studies addiction relapse and is well-versed in the …

#597 Mary Mack Live

June 24th, 2022


Mary Mack (@MaryMackComedy) is a comedian, writer, and actor. Today, she sits down with Paul in an episode that takes place LIVE at Sisyphus Brewing …

#596 Love Avoidance - Rebecca D

June 17th, 2022


Rebecca D is a friend from Paul’s support group. She opens up about her experience with covert incest (a father who treated her like his “wingman” …

#595 Terrorist Attack Girl - Meyli Chapin

June 10th, 2022


Meyli Chapin (@MeyliChapin) is a terror attack survivor. She shares her vivid recollection of the 17-hour event that changed her life and how PTSD …

#594 Concussions - Ethan O'Brien & Dr B

June 3rd, 2022


Dr. Sasha Blaskovich & Ethan O’Brien join Paul to discuss their book Dr. B’s Concussion Breakthrough: Exploring the Hidden Connection to Neck …

#593 Repressed Homes - Beth Lapides

May 27th, 2022


Beth Lapides aka @BethLapides is a writer, a producer, and the creator of UnCabaret–the show that launched the alt comedy revolution. She shares her …

#592 BPD & DBT - Jesse Finkelstein

May 20th, 2022


Jessie Finkelstein, a therapist specializing in Emotional Regulation Disorder (BPD) and DBT therapy, shares his expertise. He is the creator of the …

#591 - Taboos - Ali Weiss

May 13th, 2022


Ali Weiss (aka @AliWeissWorld) has made a career out of talking about difficult things. In this episode, she reveals her stories of addiction, …

#590 Adam Ferrara - Anxiety!

May 6th, 2022


Actor and stand-up comedian Adam Ferrara (@AdamFerrara) shares his struggles with panic, anxiety, and unlearning the patterns of his childhood–along with his appreciation for life lessons from his father. Be sure to …

#589 Schizoaffective Disorder - Jen W

April 29th, 2022


Paul’s support group friend, Jen W, opens up about living with schizoaffective disorder and her journey to becoming a nurse. She also delves into her …

#588 - Covert Incest - Dr Kenneth Adams

April 22nd, 2022


Dr. Kenneth Adams is a therapist and author of Silently Seduced—which you may recognize as a book that changed Paul’s life. He offers insights on how …

#587 Mom the Brawler - Mike Schmidt Returns

April 15th, 2022


Paul’s friend Mike Schmidt @the40YearOldBoy reflects on his mother’s complex life after her recent passing. She was a survivor and a protector–and …

#586 Limey

April 8th, 2022


Paul's hockey buddy, Limey, shares how important hockey and his team has been for him as someone who has struggled with depression–an illness that he …

#585 Promiscuity, Swinging & Love Addiction - Hannah

April 1st, 2022


Paul’s guest Hannah opens up about her love addiction, promiscuity, and how she became a swinger. She also reveals the emotional turmoil of someone …

#584 Envy - Maggie Rowe

March 25th, 2022


Author Maggie Rowe, @ThisMaggieRowe, shares her story of growing up an Evangelical with Pure OCD and an obsessive fear of going to hell. She and Paul …

#583 BiPolar - Gabe Howard

March 18th, 2022


Gabe Howard is an author, podcaster, and mental health advocate who speaks honestly about living with bipolar disorder. He talks to Paul about his …

#582 Sexual Anorexia & Surrogacy - Joe M

March 11th, 2022


Joe M sits down with Paul and opens about his experiences with sexual anorexia and his emotionally chaotic childhood. He also speaks candidly about …

#581 Ali Vingiano

March 4th, 2022


Ali Vingiano (@AliVingiano) is a writer and producer for The Morning Show as well as a variety of wildly-popular short films. She opens up to Paul …

#580 Director Amy Ziering

February 25th, 2022


Amy Ziering is the Emmy award-winning investigative filmmaker behind the groundbreaking documentaries Allen v Farrow, The Invisible War, and more. …

#579 FOMO - Patrick McGinnis

February 18th, 2022


Author and creator of the FOMO concept Patrick McGinnis (@PJMcGinnis) joins Paul to talk about his journey from the chaos on Wall Street to a more …

#578 Childhood Trauma - Michael Unbroken

February 11th, 2022


Michael Unbroken is a life coach for trauma survivors. This week, he sits down with Paul and opens up about his own traumatic childhood and how he …

#577 - Complicated Parents - Zoe Friedman

February 4th, 2022


Long-time studio exec Zoe Friedman shares what it was like to work at Comedy Central & The David Letterman Show. She opens up about her complicated relationship with her parents and what she’s proudest of: The …

#576 Catfishing, Food, Anger & Sex - Marie

January 28th, 2022


Paul’s support group buddy, Marie, shares her struggles with food addiction, sex addiction, and how she works through her anger. 

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#575 Connor Franta

January 21st, 2022


Author, artist, and entrepreneur Connor Franta @ConnorFranta sits down with Paul and talks about growing up in a small town, becoming internet …

#574 Psychosis & Recovery - Alycia Returns

January 14th, 2022


Paul's friend from his support group, Alycia Schlesinger, shares her experience with an anomalous psychosis and how she's made sense of her trauma by …

#573 Art & Trauma - Michael Namkung

January 7th, 2022


Artist, teacher, and Ultimate Frisbee Champion Michael Namkung @MichaelNamkung reflects on what it means to love, to find your own voice, and to work through the pain of your past with art. Be sure to Check out his …

#572 Best Of - Dave Holmes

December 31st, 2021


This episode with @DaveHolmes was voted a listener favorite in 2012. Some people know Dave from MTV's Wanna Be a VJ contest, where he was runner-up, …

#571 Best Of - Laurie Kilmartin

December 24th, 2021


Originally aired in 2012 and voted a listener favorite, @anyLaurie16, The NY Times Bestselling author (of Shitty Mom, and Dead People Suck), tv writer (Conan), standup (finalist on Last Comic Standing) and single Mom …

#570 Best Of - Dave Anthony

December 17th, 2021


Voted a listener favorite when it aired in 2012, the comedian, writer and podcaster (The Dollop) talks about being neglected as a child, his …

#569 Best Of - Dr Jessica Zucker #1

December 10th, 2021


Voted as the listener's favorite from the second year of our podcast (2012), Dr. Jessica Zucker graces the show as our first mental health expert and …

#568 Best Of - Eddie Pepitone

December 3rd, 2021


People may know Eddie (@EddiePepitone, @EddiePep), from Old SchoolBitter Buddha and his hilarious standup special In Ruins. Paul knows Eddie as a …

567 Bipolar Twins Maria & Anna Duke

November 26th, 2021


Twin sisters and hosts of the Bipolar Bicoastal Podcast Anna & Maria Duke (@rhymeswithanna and @themariaduke) talk about childhood and how they …

#566 Trauma Surfacing - Andrea Ashley

November 19th, 2021


Andrea Ashley, host of the podcast Adult Child, talks about how she got sober as a teenager and discovered that her childhood was filled with a …

#565 - Losing a Child - Anne Moss Rogers

November 12th, 2021


Author and speaker Anne Moss Rogers shares the moving story of trying to save, and ultimately losing, her son. She gives personal and professional …

#564 Rosebud Baker

November 5th, 2021


Comedian and writer Rosebud Baker (@RosebudBaker) shares her experiences with addiction, panic attacks, and overwhelming grief. She opens up about the untimely death of her sister as well as the realities of marriage. …

#563 Ex NHL'er Daniel Carcillo

October 29th, 2021


Ex-NHL player and mental health advocate Daniel Carcillo aka @CarBombBoom13 joins Paul to discuss the dark side of hockey and the side-effects of …

#562 Attention - Dr Amishi Jha

October 22nd, 2021


Dr. Amishi Jha is the Director of Contemplative Neuroscience for the Mindfulness Research and Practice Initiative where she studies mindfulness and …

#561 Non-Binary Sex & Love Addiction - Mica

October 15th, 2021


Mica opens up to Paul and shares their story of childhood abuses, confronting their sex and love addiction, and what it can feel like to be a …

#560 Good Anxiety - Dr Wendy Suzuki

October 8th, 2021


Dr. Wendy Suzuki @wasuzuki shares her expertise: Good Anxiety, which also happens to be the name of her newest book. Wendy and Paul discuss the …

#559 Undercover Police Work - Neil Woods

October 1st, 2021


Author and former undercover UK narcotics officer Neil Woods @Wudzee0 talks about the drug war and how it intersects with mental health. He also opens up about the harm he caused and his regrets about the emotional …

#558 Not Guilty By Reason of Insanity - Olachi Tiffany Etoh

September 24th, 2021


Writer and mental health advocate, Olachi Tiffany Etoh, shares her experience living with bipolar and how an episode of psychosis landed her in jail. …

#557 Ex-NFL Player Joe Barksdale

September 17th, 2021


Musician, producer, and comedian Joe Barksdale @JBDale72  joins Paul to share his experiences with autism, abuse, and intergenerational trauma in the …

#556 Sharing Anonymously - Jo Aggarwal

September 10th, 2021


Jo shares about Wysa, the app she developed (which was featured on Google Play as Best App of 2020) that helps people share their feelings anonymously.
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#555 Family Schizophrenia - Paolina Milana

September 3rd, 2021


Born to Sicilian parents, she opens up about her childhood secrets; her mother’s and sister’s battles with Schizophrenia and the policeman who …

#554 Don Morgan

August 27th, 2021


Don Morgan, an Emmy award winning cinematographer and Paul's long-time friend, shares his experiences with being stuck in a foreign prison at 13 …

#553 VeryWell Mind's LCSW Amy Morin

August 20th, 2021


Amy Morin is an author, a therapist (LCSW), and the Editor-in-Chief of the popular mental health website Verywell Mind. Be sure to check out her new …

#552 Anorexia & Self Harm - Jesse Mangan

August 13th, 2021


Listener and podcaster Jesse Mangan opens up about his struggles with anorexia, exercise addiction, self-harm, and a suicide attempt at the age of …

#551 Grace Miceli - How to Deal

August 6th, 2021


Illustrator and author Grace Miceli aka @ArtBabyGirl talks about what she’s learned so far--including why stuffing down your emotions never actually works, why communicating your feelings is key, and why conflict is …

#550 Best Of - Kathryn Hahn

July 30th, 2021


Originally aired in our first year (2011). You know her from films such as Anchorman, Step Brothers, How Do You Know and A Lot Like Love. Funny, nice …

#549 Best Of - Danielle Koenig

July 23rd, 2021


From 2011, Paul and Danielle @DanielleBKoenig talk about the desire to minimize painful memories, feeling like we’re not enough, writing for Joan …

#548 Best Of - Greg Behrendt

July 16th, 2021


Originally aired in 2011, Paul and Greg do the very first Fear & Love Off. One of Paul's favorites.
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#547 Best Of - Karen Kilgariff

July 9th, 2021


Originally aired in 2013, this is a best of ep with Karen Kilgariff, the co-host of My Favorite Murder, years before she started her podcast. This was recorded in front of an audience at the Bridgetown Comedy Festival.  

#546 Best Of - Jamie aka Jimmy Franzo

July 2nd, 2021


A “Best Of” episode from 2013, Paul’s friend opens up about being kidnapped by a motorcycle gang at 13, his success as a South Beach nightclub owner …

#545 Near Death Experience - Sarah Goff

June 25th, 2021


Sarah Goff opens up about her intense struggles with a mystery illness that caused severe pain and led to a near-death experience--and a complete shift in her mindset going forward. 
For more about Sarah and her …

#544 Andrew Solomon & Juan Acosta

June 18th, 2021


Paul leads a conversation with Andrew Solomon @Andrew_Solomon (author, and mental health activist) & Juan Acosta @JUANACOSTA_ (author and …

#543 Codependency - Marissa Esquibel

June 11th, 2021


Therapist Marissa Esquibel (LMFT) and host of the Codependummy Podcast joins Paul to deep dive into codependency and parentification. She also opens …

#542 Emotional Neglect - Gillian G

June 4th, 2021


Artist and graphic novel author Gillian G shares her struggles with anxiety, her deep desire to be a prodigy, and how she confronted her father about his emotional neglect. Be sure to check out her new book Shirley …

#541 Narcissistic Partners - Dr Gregory Kushnick

May 28th, 2021


Psychologist Dr. Gregory Kushnick discusses his specialty: Signs you're in a relationship with a narcissist.
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#540 Therapeutic Writing - Diane Sherry Case

May 21st, 2021


Diane Sherry Case is an author and creative writing instructor with a specific focus on therapeutic writing. She and Paul discuss the power of …

#539 ADHD - Dani Donovan

May 14th, 2021


Comic artist and mental health advocate Dani Donovan @DaniDonovan joins Paul to unpack all things ADHD--including some surprising and lesser-known …

#538 Sexual Desire - Dr Nazanin Moali

May 7th, 2021


Clinical psychologist, certified sex therapist and host of the Sexology Podcast (@SexologyPodcast ), Dr. Nazanin Moali, joins Paul to discuss the …

#537 Glenn Meehan

April 30th, 2021


Television Producer Glenn Mehan @GlenMee shares intimate portraits of his life including the difficult relationships with his parents and what it was …

#536 Recovering From Sexual Abuse - Rebecca Rogers Maher

April 23rd, 2021


Novelist Rebecca Rogers Maher joins Paul as they unpack the trauma surrounding childhood sexual abuse. They talk about the ways it can show up as an …

#535 Mohoganey

April 16th, 2021


Mohogany opens up about her struggles with depression, self-harm, and addiction and how she navigated these issues as a young Black woman in a mostly-white community. She also shares moments from her life where she’s …

#534 Psychotic Break & BiPolar - Ethan Warren

April 9th, 2021


Filmmaker and writer Ethan Warren (West of Her, Bright Wall/Dark Room) shares his intense experience with having a psychotic episode and being …

#533 Cults - Dr Janja Lalich

April 2nd, 2021


Dr. Janja Lalich, former cult member turned cult researcher and expert, joins Paul to discuss the characteristics of cult leaders, psychopathy, …

#532 Matt Haig

March 26th, 2021


Best-selling author Matt Haig (@MattHaig1) discusses how he works through his depression, panic attacks, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. Matt has written several books including Reasons to Stay Alive and his newest book …

#531 Hot Mess Girls

March 19th, 2021


Comedians Andrea Allan and Emily Lubin (@HotMessComedyHour) sit down with Paul and talk about everything from dealing with divorce and tough breakups …

#530 Chanel Miller

March 12th, 2021


Writer Chanel Miller @Chanel_Miller joins Paul to discuss her memoir Know My Name. Chanel opens up about the sexual assault at Stanford that gained …

#529 Shopping Addiction - Julie K

March 5th, 2021


Paul’s guest this week, Julie K, opens up about her shopping addiction and unhealthy ways that she’s coped with her parents’ emotional neglect. She …

#528 Masculinity - Ted Bunch

February 26th, 2021


Healthy masculinity advocate Ted Bunch sits down with Paul to discuss manhood, misogyny, racism, & raising LGBTQ kids. Ted is the creator of the …

#527 Attracted to the Emotionally Unavailable - Gabby

February 19th, 2021


Paul's long-time friend shares her story of emigrating to the U.S. from Afghanistan and overcoming the abuse from her childhood. She digs into her …

#526 The Epidemic of Denial - Dr David Rosmarin

February 12th, 2021


Dr. David Rosmarin, Assistant Professor of Psychology at Harvard joins Paul to discuss the epidemic of people denying reality and how sometimes …

#525 Doctors Have Issues Too - Dr Rachel Taylor

February 5th, 2021


Primary Care Physician and author Dr. Rachel Taylor reflects on experiencing sexual abuse, being misdiagnosed, being an overachiever, marrying very young, and growing up in the Mormon church. She is the author of …

#524 Duncan Trussell

January 29th, 2021


Comedian and actor Duncan Trussell @DuncanTrussell shares his experiences with managing his depression and unpacks his spirituality-- including the significant power that Buddhist philosophy has had in his life.
More …

#523 Dr Lesley Tate Gould

January 22nd, 2021


Dr. Lesley Tate Gould talks about Somatic Experiencing as a type of trauma therapy. She shares her insights into this therapy model and the talks …

#522 Catie Osborn

January 15th, 2021


Actor, magician, and Shakespeare nerd Catie Osborn @catieosaurus opens up about her ADHD, depression, and living with myoclonus-dystonia. Be sure to check out her new podcast Catie & Erik's Infinite Quest: An ADHD …

#521 Tim Minchin

January 8th, 2021


Musician and comedian Tim Minchin, @TimMinchin, talks with Paul about his new, debut studio album "Apart Together". They also dive into the journey …

#520 Best Of - Jessie Perez

January 1st, 2021


The former East L.A. gang member has been dodging bullets for years – sometimes literally sometimes figuratively. Though he walked away from his …

#519 Best Of - Nikki Glaser

December 25th, 2020


From 2012. The standup comedian opens up about hitting bottom with anorexia as a teen, only to discover ten years later, her food issues haven’t …

#518 Gabby Lamb

December 18th, 2020


Comedian and actress Gabby Lamb sits down with Paul to talk about intimacy issues, shame, and facing your demons. She also opens up about her …

#517 Out of Control Sexual Behavior - Jess Levith LMFT

December 11th, 2020


Sex therapist and Paul’s longtime friend, Jess Levith, helps unpack the sexual shame that we can sometimes feel and offers tips on how to be present …

#516 Rich - Relationship Drama

December 4th, 2020


Paul's support group friend shares about his history of struggling to find healthy partners especially his most recent which involved out of control …

#515 Best of - Dwayne Perkins

November 27th, 2020


 Dwayne @funnyDP was born to a fifteen year-old mother in the projects of Brooklyn and he was a fighter.   Strong-willed, rebellious and intelligent, …

#514 Mara Wilson Returns

November 19th, 2020


Author and actress Mara Wilson @MaraWilson talks about her recent struggles with chronic illness as well as managing her OCD and anxiety. She also …

#513 Melinda Hill

November 13th, 2020


Comedian, writer, actress, & podcaster (Let's Process This) Melinda Hill @RealMelindaHill talks about growing up with a parent with untreated …

#512 Anxiety - Joe List

November 6th, 2020


Comedian and podcaster (Mindful Metal Jacket) Joe List @JoeListComedy talks about how he manages anxiety and panic attacks and what ultimately led …

#511 Intimacy Struggles - Monica Padman

October 30th, 2020


Podcaster (Armchair Expert, Monica and Jess Love Boys) and actress Monica Padman @mlPadman sits down with Paul to unpack her struggles with intimacy, …

#510 Virtual Reality & Mental Health - Nanea Reeves

October 23rd, 2020


Nanea Reeves is the CEO & Co-Founder of TRIPP, a mobile app focused on creating mood altering experiences in virtual reality. She talks about VR research and her own struggles that led her to where she is.
For more …

#509 Gabbie Hanna

October 16th, 2020


Writer and musician Gabbie Hanna @GabbieHanna reads excerpts from her powerful book Dandelion and opens up about her struggles with past traumas, …

#508 Neuroscience of Trauma - Dr Erik Won

October 9th, 2020


Neuroscientist and former Navy flight surgeon, Dr. Erik Won, shares his insights into mental health and the brain and talks about the trauma and struggles that come with caring for--and losing--some of his injured …

#507 Our Prison Problem - Brandon Stickney

October 2nd, 2020


Writer Brandon Stickney (The Five People You'll Meet in Prison), who has spent time in four different prisons, talks about his own experiences as well as the inhumane issues with our profit-driven prison industry in …

#506 Doyin Richards

September 25th, 2020


The racial justice & mental health advocate discusses what life can be like for Black men in America, shares his expertise on how to be anti-racist and how he manages his depression. 
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#505 Poker-Pro-Turned-Therapist Ben Fineman

September 18th, 2020


Therapist-in-training Ben Fineman reflects on his past life as a professional poker player and discusses the mistakes we all make in relationships. He also dives into the topic of his own podcast: How to recognize and …

#504 Jameela Jamil

September 11th, 2020


Actor (The Good Place) and activist Jameela Jamil @JameelaJamil chats with Paul about society's influence on self-image, the pitfalls of cancel …

#503 Dr Jill Stoddard

September 4th, 2020


Psychologist and writer Dr. Jill Stoddard talks about different types of anxiety, how to recognize and unpack your triggers, and how mindfulness is …

#502 Surviving Music & Drugs - Charlie Springer

August 28th, 2020


Paul's long-time friend, Charlie Springer, talks about giving up the seminary to move to San Fran in the Summer Of Love, beginning a career working …

#501 Dr Menije Boduryan

August 21st, 2020


Clinical psychologist and immigrant Menije Boduryan talks with Paul about perfectionism, imposter syndrome, and generational trauma in the Armenian …

#500 Dealing w/Male Culture - Jordan Reid Returns

August 14th, 2020


Author and actor Jordan Reid shares her perspective on marriage, emotional labor, raising feminist boys, and what being in a relationship can mean for modern-day women.
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#499 Brianne Davis

August 7th, 2020


Paul's longtime support group friend shares about her sex and love addiction and how getting help for it helped her learn how to be intimate, stop …

#498 Best Of - Jimmy Dore

July 31st, 2020


A replay from 2011 (our 15th episode) - Paul's friend, comedian Jimmy Dore talks about growing up Catholic in a violent and segregated Chicago …

#497 Best Of - Lia McCord

July 24th, 2020


What happens when a naive Texas cheerleader from an abusive home tries to pay for college by smuggling heroin in Bangladesh?  Probably not what you …

#496 Best Of - Kristine Keese

July 17th, 2020


The Holocaust survivor, mother, teacher and activist reflects on her coping mechanisms, her ability to find joy, feelings unique to motherhood, her …

#495 Best Of - Greg Cheever Part 2

July 10th, 2020


The second of a two-part interview from 2011 with Paul's sober friend; a former studio projectionist, dealer, fugitive and heroin-addict.
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#494 Best Of - Greg Cheever 1 of 2

July 3rd, 2020


Originally recorded in the podcast's first year (2011) Paul sat down with his support group friend; a former fugitive, ex-con drug dealer, …

#493 Listener Struggles

June 26th, 2020


Paul reads submissions from listeners about the challenges in their lives.
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#492 Susan P

June 19th, 2020


Paul's support group friend shares about her experiences as a black woman in America, her addiction to unavailable men, the wreckage of her acting …

#491 Ted Lyde Returns

June 12th, 2020


Paul's friend and fellow comedian/podcaster (Learning Not To Swear) returns to talk about George Floyd's murder, systemic racism, the police, …

#490 Best Of - Dr Melanie Watkins

June 5th, 2020


The board-certified psychiatrist answers questions about personality disorders, medication, problems in the mental health system and mental health in the black community.
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#489 Psychiatrist Dr. Esther Park MD

May 29th, 2020


The psychiatrist shares her experience in deciding when it's appropriate to prescribe meds, diagnosing ADD/ADHD, the difference between role and …

#488 Katie Vernoy Answers Your Questions

May 22nd, 2020


The licensed therapist @KatieVernoy returns to answers listener's questions about a variety of topics but mostly about ways to handle the pandemic emotionally and mentally.
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#487 BiPolar I - Graphic Novelist Rachel Lindsay

May 15th, 2020


The graphic novelist (Rx) opens up about her battles with Bipolar I, being involuntarily committed, and having been an ad account executive creating …

#486 Dr Shaili Jain - PTSD

May 8th, 2020


Having studied and worked with thousands of people with PTSD from combat, sexual, physical or emotional trauma, the Stanford faculty psychiatrist …


May 1st, 2020


Paul shares some stories of people battling shame (especially around their bodies) and reads from the Loves, Happy Moments and Awfulsome moments …

Pandemic 4

April 24th, 2020


Paul reads listener experiences around their mental/emotional struggles and victories -some serious some humorous- including the Covid crisis.
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Being Broke & In Debt - Nathan Rabin

April 17th, 2020


The blogger/author returns to open up about dealing with the strain of being fired, perpetually broke and in debt while trying to provide for his family.
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Coping w/the Pandemic 3

April 10th, 2020


Another installment of Paul reading anonymous surveys submitted by listeners about their mental and emotional ups and downs during the pandemic as …

Coping and the Pandemic 2

April 3rd, 2020


The second installment of listeners sharing their loves, happy and awfulsome moments and struggles during the pandemic via surveys read by Paul.

Coping in a Pandemic

March 27th, 2020


Listeners share their loves and struggles during the pandemic via surveys read by Paul.
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Things We Love

March 20th, 2020


Who couldn't use some positive vibes this week? No guest, just things that people love, submitted via the show's Loves Survey.
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Hell's Kitchen Kenny

March 13th, 2020


Paul's support group friend recounts his childhood and teenage years growing up in NYC's Hell's Kitchen and the cycles of violence, addiction, crime …

Ask a Sex Crimes Detective - Don Howell Returns

March 6th, 2020


The retired sex crimes detective and speaker/author answers listener questions about the mentality of serial killers and  sex offenders, the legal system, victim rights and famous cases past and present.
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Sleep Deprivation - Teresa Strasser Returns

February 28th, 2020


The host/performer @TeresaStrasser returns to talk about her misdiagnosed, involuntary stay in the psych ward after breaking down as a severely …

Secrets & Trust - Sam Dingman

February 21st, 2020


The writer/performer (winner of The Moth GrandSlam) opens up about the family secret that harmed his ability to trust and the eventual airing of it that improved his relationship with them. He also shares about his …

Physically Transitioning - Fallon Chavez

February 14th, 2020


Fallon talks about her life as a trans woman; her desire to be "passable", how she feels about her voice, her experiences pre-op and post-op, the fetishizing of trans women, having bottom surgery and the bathroom …

Moral Injury - Veteran Tom Voss

February 7th, 2020


The Iraq war veteran, author and advocate talks about PTSD and moral injury he battled after returning home and the positive effects meditating has had on his struggles.
Tom is the author of
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Ask A Therapist - Katie Vernoy Returns

January 31st, 2020


Therapist Katie Vernoy returns to answer listener questions about therapist/patient boundaries, when to report a client (in response to a very dark survey), what therapists get wrong and how to know when we're …

Smothered & Entitled - Al Lubel

January 24th, 2020


Al has always been a comedian's comedian, but mainstream success has always eluded him. Raised by a smothering anxious mother, fear and lack of independence have stunted his emotional growth. He talks about the fear of …

From Chaos to Purpose - Wendy Adamson

January 17th, 2020


Despite her traumatic upbringing and becoming the woman (her mom) she swore she'd never be, Wendy went from an alcoholic PTA mother shooting at her …

Chronic Health Issues - Karolyn Gehrig

January 10th, 2020


Karolyn suffers from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a connective tissue disease that affects her joints and internal organs as well as being diagnosed with …

Native American Ellen Blackcloud

January 3rd, 2020


Ellen (a pseudonym) shares about shares about discrimination, growing up poor, living on a reservation, riding the line between native culture and …

Best Of: Hank Adams

December 27th, 2019


Prostitution, alcoholism, fetishes, swinging, abandonment and being stabbed by a bayonet.  Handyman Hank Adams has experienced them all.  Paul’s …

Brian Simpson

December 20th, 2019


The standup comic (Lights Out) (aka @BSComedian) and Iraq War vet opens up about his unstable childhood - being lied to and moved from foster home to foster home - and how it has affected him, what he learned about …

Being Non-Binary - Gobbie Dixon

December 13th, 2019


The 29 year-old Second City writer/performer @GobbieDixon shares about being gender-fluid, growing up believing there was nobody else going thru the …

464 - Surviving Domestic Violence - Gold Medalist Ruthie Bolton

December 6th, 2019


The 2-time Olympic gold medalist and Women's Basketball Hall of Fame inductee shares about surviving domestic abuse and becoming an advocate for …

Best Of - Paul F Tompkins

November 29th, 2019


The talented stand-up comedian, podcaster (The Neighborhood Listen) and writer/actor (HBO’s Mr. Show, Bojack Horseman, Room 104, Comedy Bang Bang) …

Body Image & Sexuality - Jessi Kneeland

November 22nd, 2019


Paul and Jessi talk about the mean voices in our heads - especially towards our bodies; how childhood sexual trauma affects sexuality, …

Living With Epilepsy - Alisa Kennedy Jones

November 15th, 2019


The writer and NPR contributor @IAmGothamGirl shares about developing epilepsy at 40 (as a single mom), bad doctors, shattering her face during a seizure, the myths around her condition and the hope she has found …

LGBTQ Battles & Milestones - Dr Perry Halkitis

November 8th, 2019


The public health psychologist opens up about the mental, emotional and political battles both personal and cultural that the LGBTQ community has …

Wildfire Trauma & Loss - Nick H

November 1st, 2019


Nick talks about being a social worker clinician working with victims of the wildfires as well as combat veterans. Topics covered: types of PTSD, …

What A Body Remembers - Karen Stefano

October 25th, 2019


Despite being attacked as a college student, the author of What A Body Remembers went on to become an attorney defending violent offenders. She talks …

Joshua Peck

October 18th, 2019


The actor (Josh and Drake) and podcaster (Curious) opens up about being the anxious "fat kid", never knowing his father, being raised by a single mom, getting sober and learning how to cope with uncomfortable feelings.

How To Disagree - Oren Jay Sofer

October 11th, 2019


The communications trainer, meditation teacher and author talks about his history of stuffed anger and how he learned to use non-violent …

Narcissists & Psychopaths - Dr Ramani Durvasula

October 4th, 2019


The clinical psychologist and author shares her insights and the studies on narcissists (and recognizing one in your life) and psychopaths as well as …

James Ransone

September 27th, 2019


The actor @JamesRansone (IT: Chapter 2, The Wire, Generation Kill, Ken Park, Tangerine) opens up about his difficult upbringing, searching for a …

Caitlin Doughty Returns - Death, Anxiety & Workaholism

September 20th, 2019


The mortician and bestselling author reads from her new book and opens up about her fascination and fear of death, her battles with anxiety and …

Jamie Tworkowski - To Write Love On Her Arms

September 13th, 2019


Jamie aka @JamieTworkowski is the founder of "To Write Lover on her Arms," a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide. …

Reclaiming Desire After Assault - Julie Peters

September 6th, 2019


Julie explains the steps to recovering desire, passion, and pleasure after her sexual assault.  Discuss how being catcalled and sexualized at age 11 …

Zane Helberg - Getting Sober

August 30th, 2019


Zane Helberg performs stand-up comedy in an unlikely setting - rehab clinics. He and Paul discuss how getting sober lead to living an authentic life, …

Covert Incest - Tony M

August 23rd, 2019


Sexual abuse and incest can often fly below the radar because there isn't overt touching but as Tony M shares, his being raised in a sexually charged home has impacted his ability to trust and be intimate.
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How Do I Choose A Treatment? - Patient Advocate Adrienne Nolan-Smith

August 16th, 2019


The patient advocate who was diagnosed with Lyme disease at 11 offers advice for navigating the complex world of healthcare and mental health.  She discusses experimental/non-approved treatments (hyperbaric oxygen …

Mixed Race & Intra-Racism - Daniel Evans Nakamura

August 9th, 2019


"Dan From The Internet" aka @DanFromTheWeb discusses intra-race racism, growing up mixed-race (Latinx/Japanese/African-American) and sexually fluid …

Behind The Laughter - Anthony & Brigitte

August 2nd, 2019


The comedian (Anthony Griffith) and doctor of psychology (Dr. Brigitte Travis Griffin) open up about losing their 2-year-old daughter to cancer and …

Best Of: Ex-Con "Murph" (2011)

July 26th, 2019


From the first season (2011). Paul interviews “Murph”, a retired serial felon who opens up about prison, the guilt of his crimes and leaving it all …

Best Of: Jen Kirkman

July 19th, 2019


From 2011.  Jen @JenKirkman (Chelsea Lately, Drunk History) and Paul have an epic “Fear Off” that leaves both of their souls emptied. Jen shares …

Best Of: Rob Delaney (2011)

July 12th, 2019


From 2011 - actor Rob Delaney (Catastrophe) opens up about his hilariously horrifying alcoholic bottom and how he has adapted to live with what might …

Best Of: Teresa Strasser

July 5th, 2019


Listener-Voted #1 episode of 2011 and for good reason. The Emmy-nominated writer/performer brings it. She opens up about her struggles, insecurities and fear of not being cut out to be a mother.
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Surviving Prison & Gang Life - Bobby Martinez

June 28th, 2019


The 53 year-old former gang-member has spent most of his life in prison and much of it in solitary confinement. He addresses his shame over the harms …

Repressed Memories - Aaron Woodall

June 21st, 2019


Repressed sex abuse memories are difficult especially when the perpetrator is a female relative. The comic & podcaster talks about uncovering his …

Finding Our Core Emotions - Hilary Jacobs Hendel LCSW

June 14th, 2019


The certified psychoanalyst, author of It's Not Always Depression:Working the Change Triangle to Listen to the Body, Discover Core Emotions, and Connect to Your Authentic Self and AEDP psychotherapist opens up about her …

Alec MacDonald aka @AlecWithPen

June 7th, 2019


The popular cartoonist @AlecWithPen shares his history with depression, anxiety, failed relationships, a wealthy but distant family, his type A …

Aging and Happiness - Dr Andrea Brandt

May 31st, 2019


The 77 year-old veteran psychotherapist, teacher and author shares her insights into how we can embrace aging and mortality to deal with feelings of …

Healthy Love - Christina Howard

May 24th, 2019


Her lifelong fear of commitment was masked behind an obsession with emotionally available men - Christina shares how she personally changed and healed her pain to be able to recognize and accept healthy love including …

Anxiety & Humor - Jordan Reid

May 17th, 2019


The hilarious blogger/author of Ramshackle Glam and The Big Activity Book For Anxious People shares about her battles with anxiety, relationships and being replaced as the creator and lead actress on It's Always Sunny …

Depression, Fear & Alcohol - Ry Doon

May 10th, 2019


The comedian shares about his battles with depression, fear of failure, huge financial and professional setbacks (he had a huge following on Vine …

Janet Varney Returns - Depersonalization Syndrome

May 3rd, 2019


Paul's former Dinner and a Movie cohost and very first guest on the podcast returns to share about fears, loves, panic attacks, people pleasing, hurt …

Heartache & Obsession - Elle Huerta

April 26th, 2019


The IT entrepreneur and writer who created the Mend app talks about her struggles with obsessions and letting go especially after breakups or loss, how she is creating a community online to deal with the shame, …

Rich But Sad & Video Games - Keith Kingbay

April 19th, 2019


The comedian and podcaster (New Player Has Joined) opens up about his financially privileged but emotionally barren childhood, verbal abuse from youth hockey coaches, and discovering himself thru video games.
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Our Own Worst Enemies - Therapist Lori Gottlieb

April 12th, 2019


The licensed therapist and author of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone shares about common issues people deal with in therapy and ways that we are our …

Trust Issues, Ideation & Food - Leo Flowers

April 5th, 2019


The comic, life coach, & ex-athlete shares about his lifelong suicidal ideation, struggles with food, abandonment by his dad who fathered him via …

Trading Sex For Love - Marigny Goodyear

March 29th, 2019


The 42 year-old mother reads the open letter she wrote to the men who took advantage of her as a young teen, discussing gray area issues like …

Best Of: Adoption & Religious Abuse - Julie J

March 22nd, 2019


Funny and vulnerable, Julie was born to a drug-addict teenage mom, was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist …

Grief Support Mistakes - Megan Devine LPC

March 15th, 2019


The licensed therapist shares about the well-meaning but misguided "cult of positivity" after tragedies, emotional dissonance, grief support, having …

Remembering Jenn Golick

March 8th, 2019


Weeks after recording this episode last year, therapist Dr. Jennifer Golick was killed by a combat veteran with PTSD whom she was helping. She talks …

Remembering Brody Stevens

March 1st, 2019


One of the most unique voices in comedy ended his life last week. Paul shares some thoughts on it, reads a listener email and replays episode 100, an …

Catholic Black Sheep - Joe Bill

February 22nd, 2019


Paul's longtime friend and improv teacher talk about his violent ex-Notre Dame football player dad, his mentally unstable and sexually abusive mother …

Religious & Sexual Orientation OCD - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

February 15th, 2019


Licensed therapist (LMFT) Kimberley Quinlan returns to talk about two types of OCD; Scrupulosity - a fear of sinning or having sinned, and Sexual …

Amy G - Male Attention & Safety

February 8th, 2019


Paul's support group friend opens up about being addicted to male attention while also fearing them, feeling unsafe, love addiction, growing up …

Psychiatrist/Writer Dr. Paul Puri

February 1st, 2019


The psychiatrist and tv writer (Chicago Med) shares about his childhood, why some of his peers overprescribe medications, the importance of talk …

Feeling Like An Outsider - Glenn Lutz

January 25th, 2019


The author (Go F*%#, I Mean Find Yourself) opens up about being mixed race and battling depression and feeling like an outsider as far back as …

Bonus Ep - Listener Struggles/Secrets

January 21st, 2019


Some "Shame and Secrets" surveys and some "Awfulsome" and "Happy Moments" surveys as well.
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Fears & Loves w/Nora McInerney Live

January 18th, 2019


The author (It's OK to Laugh and No Happy Endings) and host of the podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking returns in front of live audience in …

Bonus Ep - Maternal Incest - Daniel M

January 15th, 2019


After hearing mens' stories about experiencing incest (overtly or covertly) by their mothers, Daniel reached out to Paul with his story and has come …

Our Inner Critic - Cartoonist Lucy Bellwood

January 11th, 2019


The cartoonist (100 Demon Dialogues) delves into her struggles with the mean/critical voice in her head and how she is confronting the lies it tells her about herself. She also shares about her dad, the author of The …

Facing Her Fears - Courtenay Hameister

January 4th, 2019


The writer/performer opens up about her anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, shame and body issues. She also reads excerpts from Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went From Being Afraid Of Everything to Being Afraid Of Most …

2018 Year Ender - Awfulsome Traditions

December 28th, 2018


No guests, just some of Paul's thoughts on traditions and holidays; how we hide our feelings and some great, very honest (and one very dark) listener …

Struggles w/Moderation, Identity & Survivor Guilt - Akshay Nanavati

December 21st, 2018


Born in India, raised in Texas, 33 year-old Iraq War veteran, ultra-runner and global philanthropist talks about his lifelong struggles with …

Dating Anxiety & Reproductive Issues - Becky Feldman

December 14th, 2018


Coming from an anxious family, coupled with not fitting in, being bullied by her ballet teacher (and having red hair), then as a young teen, …

Back in My Parents' F-ing Basement - Live in MN w/Kjell Bjorgen

December 7th, 2018


Recorded live in Minneapolis at Sisyphus Brewing, Paul and Kjell reunite and share stories of bombing onstage, panic attacks, depression, meds, …

Cartoons & Murder - Tonya McKenzie

November 30th, 2018


One of her first memories is seeing her mother's boyfriend shot dead in front of her at four years-old. The mother she adored was fiercely protective …

LeeAnn Kreischer - Rural Southern Family Trauma

November 23rd, 2018


The former screenwriter, mother and podcaster shares about her relationship with her "party-animal" husband Bert Kreischer and her tumultuous …

FOMO, Shame & People Pleasing - Mary Holland

November 16th, 2018


The improviser/actor (UCB's Wild Horses) opens up about her struggles with feeling like a fraud, people pleasing, shame, FOMO, feeling undeserving or that her authentic self is just too much for people.
Older …

Chris Mancini - A Buffet of Anxiety

November 9th, 2018


The filmmaker (Earbuds) podcaster (Comedy Film Nerds and Conversations From the Abyss) writer (Pacified: A Handbook For the New Freaked-Out Dad) and comedian sits down to talk about anxiety, depression, parental …

Mania, Cancer, Communism & #MeToo - Sofiya Alexandra

November 2nd, 2018


The writer (Danger & Eggs) standup (Comedy Central: This is Not Happening) & podcaster (Reality Bytes) shares about her childhood under …

Lazy, Scattered & Other ADHD Labels - Jessica McCabe

October 26th, 2018


"Bored", "lazy", "scattered" "hyper"; Are these fair or accurate labels? Is there anything we can do to help our brains or motivation? Jessica shares about her past struggles with these labels and how we can find what …

It's Okay To Be Weird - May Wilkerson

October 19th, 2018


The standup & cohost of the "Crazy in Bed" podcast opens up about being an only child & a "weird kid" who couldn't appreciate her uniqueness …

OCD Rituals, Loss & Empathy - Adam Cayton-Holland

October 12th, 2018


The standup, actor and author shares about familial loss, his lifelong OCD rituals, and growing up in a home where the harsh and often brutal realities of the world were discussed with the kids, helping them empathize …

Mariel Hemingway

October 5th, 2018


The actress, mental health activist and author (Out Came the Sun: Overcoming the Legacy of Mental Illness, Addiction and Suicide in My Family) and granddaughter of writer Ernest Hemingway shares about the him, her …

Dealing With Hopelessness - AFSP Psychiatrist Dr. Christine Moutier

September 28th, 2018


The psychiatrist and chief medical officer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention shares insights into dealing with hopelessness both personally and with loved ones.
The Suicide Hotline number is …

Paul in Ireland VI - Terror, Hate & Forgiveness - Sponsored by BetterHelp

September 21st, 2018


Belfast native James Murray shares his story of surviving a terrorist attack, spiraling into drinking and anger then getting sober and finding peace & forgiveness and how he maintains it. He also shares about the …

Paul in Ireland V - Ex IRA Prisoner Jake MacSiacais - Sponsored by BetterHelp

September 14th, 2018


The former IRA fighter/volunteer shares his people's history, his years of imprisonment & torture by Protestants and the British govt, the …

Paul in Ireland IV - Emma - Sponsored by BetterHelp

September 7th, 2018


The English architect (and yoga teacher) talks about navigating relationships being bisexual, finding solutions for her lifelong bouts with anxiety, …

Paul in Ireland III- Caitlin - Sponsored by BetterHelp

August 31st, 2018


The 29 year-old Dubliner opens up about her struggles with depression, psychosis, cutting/self-harm, alcohol, anger, learning disability (seeing …

Paul in Ireland I - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Bipolar & BDP in Dublin

August 17th, 2018


21 year-old M emigrated to Dublin from China at 8. With a history of abuse and neglect, she learned to stuff her sadness or unleash it thru anger. …

ECT aka "Shock Therapy" - Beth May

August 10th, 2018


At 27 Beth has had 68 ECT treatments aka "Shock Therapy" and while she attests to it's effectiveness in helping her with her bipolar episodes it has …

Fetish Shame, Meds & Martial Arts - Dylan Brody

August 3rd, 2018


The writer/storyteller discusses the lifelong struggle to make peace with his amputation fetish, his ups and downs with taking meds, inheriting his dad's pomposity, suicidal ideation and the benefits of martial arts in …

Dealing With Addicts - Dr Cali Estes

July 27th, 2018


Cali's specialty is speaking the truth to high-profile or wealthy people trying to get sober, especially when they're being enabled by family, hangers-on or the people they make money for. Topics are : codependency, low …

Art & War - Vietnam Vet Michael Duffy

July 20th, 2018


He was just a kid who wanted to get into art school but when he was rejected, he instead got sent to Vietnam. Later he would use painting to process …

Meredith Erin - Trolls & SJWs

July 13th, 2018


Paul and Meredith share their stories and thoughts about encountering internet trolls, Social Justice Warriors gone awry and self-righteous bullies.

Brian Huskey - Codependency & Love

July 6th, 2018


The improvisor/actor (Comedy Bang Bang, UCB, Adult Swim - Mr. Neighbor's House) shares about dealing with his co-dependency, urge to fix other …

Sexism PTSD & The Body - Elizabeth Menzel

June 29th, 2018


Elizabeth Menzel's life's work is understanding and healing trauma trapped in the body - including her own. Originally a trained physical therapist she became intrigued by the link between clients with fibromyalgia and …

Female Domestic Violence Against Males

June 22nd, 2018


Daniel looks back at his relationship with his soon-to-be-ex-wife; turning from the woman of his dreams to a dangerously violent and unpredictable …

Social Anxiety - Dr Ellen Hendriksen

June 15th, 2018


The author of How To Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety, and Harvard Medical School Psychologist shares not only the …

Jessa Reed - Trailer Park Survivor

June 7th, 2018


Few guests have revealed as much of themselves as Jessa, a comic and podcaster (Mormon and the Meth-Head)  We touch on being molested, fear of …

Clutter, Hoarding & "Stuff" - Tracy McCubbin

June 1st, 2018


Decluttering expert Tracy McCubbin shares about her experiences being raised by a hoarder and how she helps clients part with their stuff. She and …

Unspeakable Trauma to Meth Psychosis - Todd G

May 25th, 2018


Paul's friend shares about the co-dependent relationship with his longtime lover that ended in tragedy & Todd's PTSD, porn & meth binges …

Best Of: Tiffany Haddish

May 18th, 2018


One of our best episodes - recorded in 2015 before she was famous (Girl's Trip, Saturday Night Live) - Tiffany opens up about her horrific family life, being shuttled around the foster care system and finally finding …

Singer-Songwriter Chris Smither

May 11th, 2018


The blues-based singer-songwriter who has written for Bonnie Raitt and other artists started out in the epicenter of the NY/Boston folk scene among …

Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday returns

May 4th, 2018


The hilarious author and uber-popular Tweeter @SoSadToday delves into subjects covered in her latest book, The Pisces (and reads from it). She and …

Andy Richter

April 27th, 2018


The comedic actor, improviser and longtime Conan O'Brien sidekick opens up about his battles with depression, worry, anxiety and sadness and how he has learned to manage them with talk therapy. He also shares about the …

Nora McInerny - Live in Minneapolis

April 20th, 2018


The host of the Terrible Thanks For Asking podcast and author of It's Okay To Laugh (Crying is Cool Too) sits down with Paul before a live audience …

Cy Amundson Live in Minneapolis

April 13th, 2018


The actor/comedian (Comedy Central Presents: Cy Amundson) opens up in front of a live audience about his OCD, anxiety and how the loss of his teenage sister affected him and his family.
For more on Cy visit

Judging Our Feelings - TED Talk speaker Dr. Susan David

April 6th, 2018


The Harvard Medical School research psychologist's recent TED Talk "The Gift and Power of Emotional Courage" went viral a month or so ago and here …

Polyamory - Daisy & Cory

March 30th, 2018


Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, …

Workaholism & Anxiety - Jordan Harbinger

March 23rd, 2018


The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks.  He talks about often …

My Brain Hates Me - Jessie Dean Altman

March 16th, 2018


The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, …

The Devil & James Bond - Michael Cannan

March 9th, 2018


Paul's support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he …

CC Sheffield - Fame, Money & Abuse

March 2nd, 2018


Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym "Daisy" to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress …

Heartbreak - The Science & Coping - Dr. Guy Winch

February 23rd, 2018


Renowned author & TedTalk speaker Dr. Guy Winch talks about different kinds of heartbreak, especially the ones some people  minimize (loss of pets or non-married breakups). He gets into the science of how our brains …

Horror & Beauty - Witnesses to a Shooting

February 16th, 2018


Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled …

Female Sex Addiction - Erica Garza

February 9th, 2018


The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off: One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety …

The Dark Grip of OCD - Dr. Jenny Yip

February 2nd, 2018


She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in...yes...OCD. …

Food Owns Me, Anger & Dad Issues - Jay Larson

January 26th, 2018


The writer (HBO's Crashing) and stand-up (Me Being Me) opens up about his dad abandoning his family when he was 2 years-old and how that has effected …

Couple Troubles - Jen Elmquist LMFT

January 19th, 2018


Couple's therapist Jen Elmquist sits down with Paul and answers questions about the most common mistakes and hurdles couples face and offers advice …

Network Anchor Panic Attack - Dan Harris

January 12th, 2018


Imagine having a panic attack live on-air while anchoring ABC news. That happened to Dan Harris in 2004. The Nightline anchor, Good Morning America Weekend Co-anchor, war correspondent and author (10% Happier) opens up …

My Fair Junkie - Amy Dresner

January 5th, 2018


The author (My Fair Junkie) details her jaw-dropping and often hilarious descent from a nice (but spoiled) Jewish girl from Beverly Hills to shooting coke into her neck, bottoming out on meth and sex and being assigned …

Asperger's, Nerd Culture & Anime - Luke Palmer

December 29th, 2017


The young writer/director (2 Kawaii 4 Comfort) shares about the intersection of people on the autism spectrum (especially Asperger's) and nerd …

Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.

December 22nd, 2017


Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston …

Military PTSD & Sexism - Marc & Sonja Raciti

December 15th, 2017


Marc and Sonja Raciti both served in the military; he as a medic, she as a psychologist. They talk about PTSD myths and the PTSD he struggles with …

High School Tornado/Author Seamus Kirst

December 8th, 2017


In a live show recorded in Oakland, the 26 year-old writer (Shitfaced) discusses the loving but strained atmosphere growing up and his teenage years …

The Absent Father Wound - Daria Polatin

December 1st, 2017


The award-winning playwright, t.v. writer (Jack Ryan)and author (Devil in Ohio) opens up about feeling abandoned by her father and the effect it has had on how she views herself, her place in it and the conscious …

Alt Depression Treatments - Shane Mauss

November 24th, 2017


The standup/podcaster (Here We Are podcast) shares about taking unconventional approaches to his battles with depression and hopelessness. He opens up about his kind but very religious and uncommunicative parents and …

Kelly's Shame and Secrets

November 17th, 2017


Growing up Kelly McCarron's home life wasn't chaotic or abusive but she still struggles mentally and emotionally. After filling out the show's Shame and Secrets survey she reads it aloud, touching on the issues of …

Success-Obsessed Parents & The Scapegoat Child

November 10th, 2017


30 year-old Mary M. left America for Europe to escape not only an American culture that was wearing on her but a family where she was tired of being …

#355 Afraid To Leave The House - Sam Harriman

November 2nd, 2017


Panic attacks, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression had brought Sam to a very dark place a few years ago and he decided he needed help. Bit by bit he began to see how his childhood and negative self-beliefs had to be …

#354 Surviving Suicide - Kelechi Ubozoh

October 27th, 2017


The 32 year-old poet, mental health advocate and daughter of a Nigerian immigrant father and Brooklyn mother opens up to Paul about her emotional and …

#353 Andy Kindler - OCD, ADD, Twitter Fights & More

October 20th, 2017


Paul's longtime friend, standup (Letterman) and actor (Everybody Loves Raymond) shares about his struggles with OCD, ADD and feeling the need to …

#352 Caitlin Doughty: Death, OCD & Being a Mortician

October 13th, 2017


The mortician, TED Talk speaker and author of Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, talks about her childhood OCD and fascination with death as a result of …

#351 Fears, Loves, Filth & Mortality w Greg Behrendt

October 5th, 2017


The comedian, co-author of He's Just Not That Into You and longtime friend of Paul drops by to lighten his day up. They laugh at their fears, loves …

#350 Intrusive Thoughts OCD aka "Pure OCD" - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

September 29th, 2017


Specializing in treating clients whose self-judgement of their thoughts results in obsession and compulsions, Kimberley sits down with Paul and talks …

Manipulative or Coercive Sex

September 22nd, 2017


Paul's support group friend Meredith opens up about being raised by parents who lacked a sense of privacy or sexual boundaries; being sexualized by …

#348 Manhattan Party Girl - Fielding Edlow

September 15th, 2017


Raised in financial privilege but emotional poverty, the actor/writer/standup reflects on her "don't give a fuck" eating disorder, drug and alcohol …

#347 Paul Rust - Anxiety, OCD & Embarrassment

September 8th, 2017


The actor/writer/comedian known for the Netflix show Love, the movie Inglourious Basterds and IFC's Comedy Bang! Bang! opens up about his battles with anxiety, OCD, taking on other people's emotions, people pleasing, …

#346 Plane Crash Survivor: Carol E Miller

September 1st, 2017


The author (Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy) opens up in front of a live audience in Oakland about the years she abused herself through bad relationships, booze and sex before therapy and EMDR helped …

#345 Food, Porn, Shame, Vulnerability & Losing a Sibling - Matt Shepherd

August 24th, 2017


Paul's support group friend shares about recovery and battles with binge-eating, shame, compulsive exercise, not knowing what he looks like, porn …

#344 If Only You Knew This Secret

August 18th, 2017


YouTube personality Sarah Sterling is 26 and was obsessed with Harry Potter (and Disney) since day one. At a convention she met a singer who captivated her. He was 24 and she was 16. Looking back, she sees it as …

#343 British Therapist Louise M

August 11th, 2017


Louise (a pseudonym) shares about the moment in her otherwise mostly happy childhood that things changed.  She shares about the abuse at a posh …

#342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons

August 4th, 2017


Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it …

#341 80's Childhood Shitshow! - Dana Eagle

July 28th, 2017


Imagine getting gay hate mail from your own family.  Or finding a letter where your parents talk about you in a way that confirms your worst fears. …

#339 I Wrote A Hit Now What?!! - Seth Swirsky

July 14th, 2017


He's authored Grammy-nominated hits for the biggest artists, put out his own albums, written best-selling books on baseball, and directed a documentary on the Beatles.  And for as long as he can remember he has …

#338 Dear Food: I Want To See Other People

July 7th, 2017


Fat-shamed as a child by her mother and classmates, writer-performer Chelsea Frank, now 24, opens up about the complex role food plays in her life. …

#337 - Raised in Repression & BPD - Anne from Berlin

June 30th, 2017


Creative and sensitive, born and raised in 1980's communist East Germany by a dysfunctional family, Anne's abuse was not dramatic, more like death by 1000 cuts.  Bearing the brunt of being a first child and resented for …

#336 Jealousy & Internet Affairs - Mila

June 23rd, 2017


What goes on in someone when they're jealous, possessive, obsessive or need to create drama?  Mila was born into a family where her parents "couldn't …

#335 From Hostile to Peaceful - JT

June 16th, 2017


19 year-old JT shares about the crippling anxiety, panic attacks and fear of abandonment he tried to alleviate for years through being hostile and …

#334 Abused By Her Therapist - Christina L

June 9th, 2017


Christina L (a pseudonym) shares about learning to stand up for herself after an abusive rehab therapist preyed on her as she was getting sober and the confusion of not knowing what he was doing was wrong.  She shares …

#333 - When Sex Abuse Victims Become Adults & Avoiding Help/Work Burnout - Katie Vernoy LMFT

June 1st, 2017


LMFT therapist Katie Vernoy and Paul respond to listener questions around the topics of 1) How childhood sexual abuse affects the survivors when they …

#332 Obsessive & Secret World of Classical Musicians - Ben Turner

May 26th, 2017


The Australian professional trombonist shares about the mental, emotional and logistical rigors of making a living as a classical musician and some insights into what drove him (and his peers) to such obsessive lengths. …

#331 The Worst Day of My Life - Rhonda Britten

May 19th, 2017


Rhonda says "It took me 20 years to get thru that day" as she opens up about the event that changed her life forever when she was 14 years old.   She …

#330 Co-Dep & Boundaries - Dr. Natalie Feinblatt

April 30th, 2017


Dr. Feinblatt shares her experience as a therapist in working with co-dependent clients; how is co-dependency defined, what are some characteristics and how can it be treated or managed? She also shares about the …

#329 My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward - Mark & Giulia Lukach

April 30th, 2017


Rarely do we talk about the spouse of someone battling a serious mental illness. Mark and Giulia had never heard of Bipolar I with psychosis until …

#328 - Crack, Fights & Trying to Find Love - Charlie King

April 28th, 2017


Paul's support group friend has led an astoundingly painful life especially in regard to his mother (schizophrenia, depression), father (workaholic, …

#327 Leaving Domestic Violence - Jenna Brister

April 21st, 2017


The comedian/storyteller (The Moth) shares about her whirlwind 86 day romance that led to a Vegas wedding to a man who soon turned into a man she didn't recognize, leaving her in fear for her life.  Jenna talks about …

#326 I Was Born Afraid - Jenny Jaffe

April 14th, 2017


The comedic writer/performer and mental health advocate who started shares about the tremendous support she received from her family when depression anxiety and OCD had her close to suicide by age …

#325 I Am The Worst Person Ever: Mike Levine

April 6th, 2017


For most of his life Mike has been wracked with shame and self-hatred, convinced he was the worst person ever and fantasizing about suicide when he …

#324 Literally Pulling Her Hair Out From PPD - Jennifer Tracy

March 31st, 2017


It wasn't until she began to literally pull chunks of her hair out she knew she might be battling something out of her control; postpartum …

#323 Family Secrets & Hiding Depression - Patricia McKee

March 24th, 2017


How does a family deal with its secrets? The PhD opens up about the inter-generational rage brewing beneath the surface of her extended family and …

#322 Being Trans in a Red State: Olivia Haidar

March 16th, 2017


The 29 year-old trans woman dispels myths about what it means to be trans, including those she used to believe. She shares about hormone therapy, …

#321 Herpes from Date-Rape: Laura J

March 9th, 2017


Laura J. shares about contracting herpes by being date-raped and how she has navigated managing it logistically, sexually and emotionally with …

#320 Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva

March 3rd, 2017


Paul's fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She …

#319 - I Worry I'm Unlovable - Pauly David

February 22nd, 2017


The co-host of YouTube's Pauly & Monks show shares about feeling unlovable, not being a good enough partner, trying to always "fix" other people, …

#318 I Can't Stop Worrying! - Giulia Rozzi

February 17th, 2017


The Moth Grand Slam winner, standup and podcaster (Hopefully We Don't Break Up) shares about being raised by Italian immigrant parents who worried a …

#317 - Misophonia: Rage at Certain Sounds

February 10th, 2017


35 year-old barista (and listener) Charlynn Schmiedt shares about having misophonia which is a "fight or flight" physical response to certain …

#316: Kevin Allison on Owning Your Weirdness & Flaws

February 3rd, 2017


The podcaster (RISK!) and sketch actor (The State) talks about learning to "own his weirdness".  From being a gay kid in a conservative town to being the black sheep in The State he has battled the paralysis and fear of …

#315 Jenny R - Raised in Wealth, Sadness & Anxiety

January 27th, 2017


The anxious only child of a drunk/rager mom and a passive dad shares about her family's combination of material wealth and emotional ignorance/poverty. She talks about her fear of "just being" instead of always "doing", …

#314 - Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M

January 20th, 2017


The 40 year-old public administrator talks about "losing her humanity" being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually …

#313 Neal Brennan

January 13th, 2017


The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle's Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one …

#312 Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me - Amanda Bloom

January 6th, 2017


The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn't have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her …

#311 Punk Rock, EMDR & Trauma w/Dr Stephen Dansiger

December 30th, 2016


At 16 he was playing drums at CBGB and Max's Kansas City as the punk scene exploded. After destroying his career (Pianosaurus, King Missile) he got sober. The PsyD & MFT explains his extensive work with treating …

#310 Glamorously Dying: Nikki DuBose

December 23rd, 2016


The 31 year-old ex-model (Vogue, Vanity Fair) discusses surviving incest by her mother (who was also an alcoholic with BiPolar and DID aka Multiple …

#309 Mini Ep - Producers of HBO's Every Brilliant Thing

December 22nd, 2016


Fenton Bailey and Randy Barbato have produced and/or directed some of Paul's favorite documentaries, including Mapplethorpe: Look At The Pictures, …

#308 A Letter To My 16 Year-Old Suicidal Self - Katie Hirshberg

December 16th, 2016


The 19 year-old college sophomore opens with a letter she wrote to her 16 year-old self who was so tired of the years of depression, anxiety …

#307 Basketball Player Royce White live at ITTFest

December 9th, 2016


The 25 year-old professional basketball player opens up to a live audience about mental health issues not only in his life (OCD, panic attacks and …

#306 Sexual Fluidity, Energy Healing, & Hypnosis - April Adams

December 2nd, 2016


Author/life-coach April Adams clarifies what an "energy healer" actually does despite it sounding like new-age b.s.  She talks about techniques she has used to deal with her childhood trauma and heal others.  She opens …

#305 Daddy Issues - Luisa Omielan

November 25th, 2016


The 34 year-old British writer/comedian/performer shares about the pain of her parents' nasty divorce when she was a kid, especially her father using …

#304 My Suicide Attempt Wakeup Call - Paul Goebel

November 18th, 2016


The actor/comedian (@Midnight) opens up about his recent suicide attempt, psych ward stay  and how it is motivating him to seek help and try to be a better husband, father and friend.  He shares about trying to break …

#303 Feeling Invisible & BPD - Celia Finkelstein

November 11th, 2016


The actor/improvisor (Horrible Bosses, American Horror Story) shares about learning to manager her Borderline Personality Disorder, and fears of abandonment or not being enough. She also shares about her weight …

#302 Behind The Good Girl Mask

November 4th, 2016


Only hugged once in her life by her mother, 25 year-old Yohana is the daughter of conservative East African war refugees from Ethiopia & Eritrea. …

#301 Sex and Politics - Jamie Varon

October 28th, 2016


The 31 year-old writer discusses feminism, sexual violence and misogyny in the context of partisan politics, and her personal life. She shares about …

#300 Jeff Rosenthal

October 21st, 2016


Jeff is Paul's friend of 28 years and the son of former guest and Holocaust survivor Kristine Keese. He shares about her recent passing, their deep …

#299 College Freshman Meltdown: Jen Curran's story

October 14th, 2016


The writer/improviser shares about the mental/emotional breakdown her freshman year of college at NYU that left her living in her car and squatting …

#298 Lora B

October 7th, 2016


The 33 year-old listener was the woman who comforted Murray Valeriano during our live episode last week.  From a blended family with every kind of …

#297 Murray Valeriano Live at LAPodfest

September 30th, 2016


The comedian/writer/podcaster had never talked much about losing his virginity at 15 to a 32 year-old tutor.  Tonight that changed and so did his …

#296 Glynn Washington

September 23rd, 2016


The producer/host of WNYC's Snap Judgment shares about being raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, strategies he's used to survive racism, what …

#295 Mara Wilson

September 16th, 2016


You probably know her as the little girl from Matilda or Mrs. Doubtfire but you probably don't know that's around the time she lost her mom, developed OCD, anxiety, depression and panic attacks and that today she is an …

#294 Dr Laura Dabney

September 9th, 2016


The psychiatrist and therapist talks about sexual trauma in the military, powerful men who fear intimacy, meds, treating personality disorders, doing …

#293 Judy Gold

September 2nd, 2016


The comedian and actress talks her anxiety and depression, being raised in an incredibly anxious household, being bullied throughout childhood for …

#292 NHL Legend Theo Fleury

August 26th, 2016


"My coach raped me over 200 times". The truth that Theo almost died trying to keep to himself. Only when he hit bottom with drugs, sex and gambling …

#291 Sarah Haufrect - My Mom Had BPD

August 19th, 2016


Sarah shares about her mother's battles with Borderline Personality Disorder, her relationship with such a "beautifully disastrously complicated" …

#290 Maddy F - Learning to Love Yourself

August 12th, 2016


You hear the phrase "love yourself" a lot.  But how do we get there? Maddy's story is a great example.  She was molested by a relative (and church …

#289 Stephen Brophy

August 4th, 2016


The reality TV producer (Somebody's Gotta Do It) opens up about his depression, social anxiety, history of unrequited love obsessions - especially as a kid, getting sober from prescription opiates and smoking speed thru …

#288 Social Worker In Training

July 29th, 2016


28 year-old Cynthia Pena ACSW opens up about her life, experiencing skin tone prejudice within the Hispanic community, being the "good child" who …

#287 Andrea C

July 22nd, 2016


Paul's support group friend and writer talks about weighing 95 lbs at 5 years-old, being in foster homes and psych wards, surviving incest, learning …

#286 Stacy Reynolds

July 15th, 2016


The 43 year old teacher and recovering alcoholic talks about being sexualized as a child by her father, having to cut contact with her controlling …

#285 Luke Burbank

July 7th, 2016


The podcaster (Too Beautiful To Live), radio host (Live Wire Radio) and tv host (CBS Morning News) talks about his outbursts of anger that get …

#284 Dr Lauren Costine

July 1st, 2016


The author (Lesbian Love Addiction: Understanding the Urge to Merge and How to Heal When Things Go Wrong) and therapist talks about love addiction especially in the lesbian community, what coming out what like for her, …

#283 Julie L: Covert Incest Survivor

June 24th, 2016


The French Canadian biologist sits down with Paul and talks about experiencing covert incest by her mother who she believes also had Borderline …

#282 Michael Alexander

June 17th, 2016


Paul's old comedy pal Mike shares about psych wards, not being deemed "black enough", anxiety, depression, experiencing some classic 70's Chicago …

#281 Sarah & Zach Goodson Pt 2

June 10th, 2016


Zachary shares his story while his wife Sarah sits in.  He talks about losing his mother (actress Diana Hyland) to cancer when he was 3, being raised by an abusive father, learning to numb himself with sex and after …

#280 Sarah & Zachary Pt 1

June 3rd, 2016


Part I of Sarah and Zachary sharing their stories and how they navigate healing while being married.  Sarah shares her story which includes sexual abuse, codependency, perfectionism, anxiety & a stay in a psych ward.

#279 Narcoleptic Codependent Anna W

May 27th, 2016


The 33 year-old research biologist shares about her narcolepsy, PTSD, cataplexy, hypnogogic hallucinations, codependency and life with a partner with …

#278 At-Risk Youth w/Elie El Habr

May 20th, 2016


MFT Intern Elie El Habr works with at-risk youth in South Central Los Angeles and shares about his successes and failures in trying to reach kids who either want help or are court mandated, as he tries to keep them from …

#277 Religious Abuse - Hilary A

May 13th, 2016


The 32 year-old shares about breaking free from her mother (and their religion Christian Science) after years of her using scripture as a weapon to …

#276 Tracy E.

May 6th, 2016


Paul's support group friend shares about being raised in a Catholic Italian-American family where attention was hard to get, how her mother's death …

#275 Tee-Tee

April 29th, 2016


The 29 year-old Vietnamese-Australian shares about being raised by his refugee, mentally-disabled (OCD & PTSD) single mother, experiencing …

#274 Melanie R (DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder)

April 22nd, 2016


22 year-old Melanie R. shares about living with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder which used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder), being …

#273 Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday

April 15th, 2016


Melissa reads excerpts from her book So Sad Today, probes her turn ons, food issues, stint with polyamory, panic attacks, sexting and depression.
This …

#272 Ex-CHP Officer Kevin Briggs

April 8th, 2016


For many years the ex-highway patrolman's beat was the Golden Gate Bridge. He shares about the encounters he had with people who wanted to jump and …

#271 Sandra (Sex Nerd) Daugherty

April 1st, 2016


The podcaster (Sex Nerd Sandra) shares some of her struggles (low self-esteem, depression, perfectionism) and shares about sex topics like: swinging, …

#270 Patti H

March 25th, 2016


The 32 year-old postal employee shares about growing up with an alcoholic mom and stoner dad, her struggles with perfectionism, anxiety, …

#269 Guy Branum

March 18th, 2016


The 40 year-old writer/comedian (Chelsea Lately) and podcaster (Pop Rocket) talks about growing up gay in a small town, losing his father a few weeks …

#268 Laura Kightlinger

March 11th, 2016


The writer/performer (The Minor Accomplishments of Jackie Woodman, Lucky Louie, Will & Grace) opens up about being the product of a secret affair in a small town and being raised by a single mom with no boundaries.  

#267 Wynter Mitchell

March 4th, 2016


The 36 year-old African American tech exec (Reddit) shares about being one of the first victims of online predators in 1995 when she was 14.  She …

#266 Sex Crimes Detective Don Howell

February 26th, 2016


The 25 year veteran shares about sex crime myths, psychopathy, the predator personality and how society can better protect itself, especially how parents can help their children.  This episode is sponsored by

#265 Monica Hernandez

February 19th, 2016


The 23 year-old shares about hitting an emotional bottom in college after a childhood/adolescence that included cutting, disordered eating, …

#264 Brian Bogosian

February 12th, 2016


The 38 year-old jeweler and support group friend of Paul's opens up about being raised by an addict father in a hyper-sexual environment and his own …

#263 Therapists Have Issues Too

February 5th, 2016


Therapist Intern Erin Fox Bishop opens up about her struggles (adolescent and postpartum depression, co-dependence, suicidal ideation), and the …

#262 Jessie Close

January 29th, 2016


The 62 year-old opens up about living with Bipolar I (with psychotic episodes and rapid cycling), battling alcoholism, being in abusive …

#261 Bipolar Mania w/Andy Behrman

January 22nd, 2016


The author (Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania) and divorced father shares about his tumultuous life in the grips of manic episodes, including art fraud, …

#260 Dr. Jonice Webb on Emotional Neglect

January 15th, 2016


The licensed psychologist and author (Running on Empty) talks about the effects of childhood emotional neglect and how parents can be more attuned to …

#259 Merritt Stewart LCSW on Sexual Trauma

January 8th, 2016


The LCSW shares her experience in advocating for and counseling survivors of sexual trauma, especially navigating the legal system and helping survivors heal.  She is based in NYC.
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#258 Jerry Stahl

January 1st, 2016


The Pushcart Prize-winning writer (Permanent Midnight, I Fatty) shares about the loss of his father to suicide, his mother's belittling of his manhood, his recovery from heroin addiction and always feeling like an …

#257 Dani Fernandez - Hashimoto's Disease

December 25th, 2015


The 27 year-old comedian/writer shares about her battle with Hashimoto's disease; an auto-immune disorder (with depression as one of its side …

#255 Tim F - Doctors Have Issues Too

December 11th, 2015


The 33 year-old MD opens up about his anxiety, depression, perfectionism, codependency, and his and his father's alcohol struggles. He also shares …

#254 Andrea Abbate

December 4th, 2015


The 59 year-old comic/writer shares about being a Scientologist,her eating disorder, drug addiction surviving incest (by her father) and her …

#253 Lisa Lawrie

November 27th, 2015


The 39 year-old mother of two opens up about her unhealed PTSD from the domestic violence and stalking she experienced at the hands of a psychopathic …

#252 Paul Gets Interviewed

November 20th, 2015


Paul's friend, former Dinner and a Movie co-host (and former podcast guest) Lisa Arch asks Paul about his life, his struggles, the podcast and …

#251 Rama I

November 13th, 2015


The 28 year-old Syrian opens up about always being the minority wherever she lives (She was born in Syria, grew up in Brazil and now lives in the …

#250 Haydn - Bipolar 1 Psychosis - Supporting a Loved One

November 6th, 2015


The 27 year-old Colombian native shares about his recent hospitalization for Bipolar I psychosis. His girlfriend Rama (next week's guest) sits in to …

#249 Jackie Kashian Live at Podfest

October 30th, 2015


The writer/comedian/podcaster (Dork Forest) shares about her tumultuous upbringing, and struggles with anger, depression, connecting to people and …

#248 Dr Jessica Zucker #3

October 23rd, 2015


Therapist Dr Zucker shares the harrowing emotional, mental and physical details of her late-term (16th week) miscarriage; how to support a friend or …

#247 Danny Hatch

October 16th, 2015


The 23 year-old Oklahoman shares about his depression, cutting, feelings of inadequacy, finding a voice and identify through comedy (Keith & The …

#246 Kate Spencer

October 9th, 2015


The writer/performer/wife/mother shares about her OCD, anxiety, panic attacks, intrusive thoughts and insomnia.  She also talks about the surprising …

#245 Pedophile Ring Survivor Anneke Lucas

October 2nd, 2015


Sold by her mother to a pedophile ring led by powerful politicians and aristocrats in her native Belgium, Anneke's story is about more than just …

#244 Natural Highs - Neuropsychologist Dr. Matt Bellace

September 24th, 2015


The neuropsychology PhD shares natural ways for us to improve our mood and take care of our brains.
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#243 Melissa Villasenor

September 18th, 2015


The 27 year-old comic/impressionist (America's Got Talent) opens up people-pleasing, cutting, isolating, creating, bombing, tattoos, the comfort of …

#242 Elyn Saks on Schizophrenia & Mental Health Law

September 11th, 2015


The USC professor of law, psychiatry and psychology (in addition to a PhD in Psychoanalysis) talks about her history of schizophrenia, her multiple …

#241 Glenn Rockowitz

September 4th, 2015


The comedian, writer (Rodeo in Joliet and Saturday Night Live) and voice actor opens up about his ongoing battles with cancer, how being told 20 …

#240 Psychiatrist Dr Melanie Watkins

August 28th, 2015


The board-certified psychiatrist answers questions about personality disorders, medication, problems in the mental health system and mental health in the black community.
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#239 Samantha Finkelstein

August 21st, 2015


The registered dietitian shares about the huge importance that was placed on food growing up in her family, how she used it to soothe instead of finding a healthy way to express her emotions and how it morphed into an …

#238 Jason Ickovitz

August 14th, 2015


The Licensed Family and Marriage Therapist opens up about the verbal abuse he endured as a kid from his father who pushed him to excel in baseball, and how therapy not only helped him cope but made him realize he wanted …

#238 Gladys A.

August 7th, 2015


The 26 year-old adoptee (from Paraguay) shares about growing up with an emotionally disturbed sibling and single mom, experiencing racism at her …

#235 Peter Hesen

July 24th, 2015


The 61 year-old talks about loneliness, the painful depths his addictions took him to and the chance he has in sobriety to be the kind of father he …

#234 Raised by Hoarders w/Michelle F

July 17th, 2015


27 year-old Michelle F shares about being raised by a shopaholic mom and a father (and grandparents) who hoarded.
See for …

#233 JoAnn Buttaro

July 10th, 2015


JoAnn shares about her path to recovery after being victimized by serial rapist Jeffrey Marsalis (dubbed the rapist).  She sheds light on how she went from her lowest low to participating in the judicial …

#232 Mary O'Hara

July 3rd, 2015


The first pupil from her inner-city high school to attend Cambridge, the 42 year-old journalist/author shares about the poverty, violence and …

#231 Lisa Richards

June 26th, 2015


The licensed clinical social worker and author of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself shares about the loss of her 18 year-old …

#230 Raised in Scientology: Derek Bloch

June 19th, 2015


The 28 year-old talks about being raised in the Church of Scientology by a narcissistic father and passive mother.  He details the abuse inflicted by …

#229 Sheila & Kim

June 12th, 2015


The lifelong friends join Paul to talk about supporting each other through their issues which include: alcoholism, food addiction, IBS and …

#228 Shootout Survivor Dan Smith

June 5th, 2015


The former armored car driver shares about the PTSD that came in the wake of a shootout that almost killed him and what it means to be masculine.
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#227 Cassie Sneider

May 29th, 2015


The writer and graphic artist (and karaoke DJ) talks with Paul about her parents gambling and shopping addictions, being bullied, becoming violent in …

#226 Therapist Kati Morton #2

May 22nd, 2015


Therapist Kati Morton returns to answer listener questions.
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#225 Joe and June

May 15th, 2015


The Israeli couple talk about their childhoods, how they try to support each other and finding emotional and sexual satisfaction given their individual issues.
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#224 Drew Monson

May 8th, 2015


The 19 year-old YouTube entertainer commiserates with Paul about OCD, depression, jealousy, naps, love and internet trolls.
See …

#223 Heather Marlowe

May 1st, 2015


The writer/performer opens up about being drugged and raped and the pressure she has been putting on the San Francisco police department to process …

#222 Terri Hartman

April 24th, 2015


The 54 year-old shares about her battles with fibromyalgia, her physically abusive mother, how her illness affects her relationships, her anxieties …

#221 Anna David

April 17th, 2015


The author/podcaster opens up about her sexually inappropriate narcissistic father, getting sober from her cocaine addiction, fear of intimacy and vacillating between thinking that she's "the shit" or a piece of it.
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#220 Matty McVarish

April 10th, 2015


A survivor of childhood sexual abuse, Matty could no longer bear the silence he saw around him, so he started Road to Change and walked 10,000 miles …

#219 Kelly M

April 3rd, 2015


The 24 year-old shares about identifying as asexual and gender-fluid as well as the hurdle of coming to terms with a childhood that wasn't overtly …

#218 Jensen Karp

March 27th, 2015


The writer/ex-rapper/entrepreneur/podcaster talks about living with Obsessive Thoughts Disorder, being molested by a 19 year-old female when he was …

#217 Jeanie Bergen

March 20th, 2015


The 30 year-old writer talks about being parentless at 3 and the complex relationship with her mentally disabled sister whom she now has guardianship …

#216 John H

March 13th, 2015


The 25 year-old discusses his Generalized Anxiety Disorder, social awkwardness, difficulty making eye-contact, compulsive overeating, abusive ex-wife …

#215 Roxanne R.

March 6th, 2015


The 57 year-old incest survivor talks about growing up in a family "where being born female was considered a moral failure".  She also talks about …

#214 Therapist Kati Morton

February 27th, 2015


The licensed therapist and Paul talk about eating disorders, emotional intimacy and how to support friends/loved ones while also practicing self-care …

#213 Tiffany Haddish

February 20th, 2015


The comedian/dancer/actor shares about her mother's descent into mental illness (schizophrenia), the abuse she suffered at her hands, the year she spent in the foster care system and the strength she feels it has given …

#212 Dean Trippe

February 13th, 2015


The comic book artist and father talks about the role superheroes have played in helping his imagination and creativity heal the trauma he …

#211 Maggie Mull

February 6th, 2015


The 28 year-old writer shares about being unemployed and an only child, her fear of abandonment, being born with club feet, body and sexuality shame …

#210 Arianna C

January 30th, 2015


The 40 year-old shares about her traumatic upbringing (incest, religious extremism, abandonment) and the ways her body and mind learned to cope; …

#208 Renee M.

January 16th, 2015


The Hispanic, 31 year-old PhD shares about the downside of raising herself up by her bootstraps; growing up knowing she couldn't depend on her …

#206 Listener Confessions 2

January 2nd, 2015


Listeners share their deepest darkest struggles and darkly hilarious "awfulsome" moments via email and surveys.  Also a contemplation on the life and …

#205 Ian Gutoskie

December 26th, 2014


The 37 year-old Canadian comic discusses his two psychiatric hospitalizations, his Bipolar II (with rapid cycling), how sports helped him channel his …

#204 Lauren Ashley Bishop (voted #2 ep of 2014)

December 19th, 2014


The 37 year-old comedian shares about the three traumas that led her to finally seek somatic therapy for her disassociating subtype of PTSD, how …

#203 Oliver Sykes

December 12th, 2014


Paul's 41 year-old friend talks (and laughs) about his arrested emotional development and struggle to be an adult after a childhood where he often …

#202 Gillian Callahan Chachere

December 5th, 2014


The therapist intern opens up about the rarely-discussed trauma of miscarriage, the lack of traditional grief support in our culture, and the …

#201 Can't Stop Her Addictions w/Noemi

November 28th, 2014


The 24 year-old first generation Mexican-American is currently unable to stop her anorexia, bulimia or blackout drinking.  She shares what her …

#200 Former NHL Goalie Clint Malarchuk (voted #3 ep of 2014)

November 21st, 2014


The former NHL goalie opens up about his difficult childhood and the OCD that helped him professionally but ultimately almost ended his life.  He …

#199 Joni G.

November 14th, 2014


"No man ever pleased me like cocaine did."  The 60 year-old shares about the drug that helped her with her ADD, feel skinnier, prettier and more …

#198 Samantha C.

November 7th, 2014


Born with achondroplasia dwarfism to emotionally unavailable Taiwanese immigrant parents, Sam shares about being a "litte person" and the ways support groups have helped her navigate dealing with love addiction, sex …

#197 Chris Gethard (voted #7 ep of 2014)

October 31st, 2014


The actor/writer opens up about his blue collar New Jersey upbringing, and his battles with anger, sadness, self-sabotage, paranoia, addiction, …

#196 Laurenne Sala

October 24th, 2014


What happens when the Homecoming Queen takes off her popularity mask and deals with the pain of her co-dependent mom and the suicide of her gay …

#195 Todd Glass (Voted #1 ep of 2014)

October 17th, 2014


The comedian and author shares about growing up with Dyslexia, OCD, being held back in grade school, his coming out of the closet in his 40s and the …

#194 Dr. Peace Amadi

October 10th, 2014


The clinical psychologist shares her insight and experience in working with The Ruby Project, helping girls who have been sexually abused and/or …

#193 Laura House (Live @ LAPodfest)

October 3rd, 2014


The meditation teacher, standup comedian and writer (Samantha Who?) talks about her struggles with alcohol, food, weight, low self-esteem, …

Episode 192: Cheryl Klein

September 26th, 2014


The breast cancer survivor opens up about her lifelong hypochondria, OCD and anxiety. She talks about the emotional toll of infertility, having a …

Episode 191: Matt Oswalt (voted #8 ep of 2014)

September 19th, 2014


The 43 year-old comedy writer opens up about his idyllic childhood, and a couple of traumatic events he believes contribute to his isolating and …

Episode 190: Aparna Nancherla

September 12th, 2014


The first generation Indian-American comedian opens up about her low self-esteem, perfectionism, depression, anxiety, eating disorder, the trap of becoming the "good child" and the constant struggle to not compare …

Episode 189: Lance L

September 5th, 2014


The pansexual Iraqi war veteran talks about his plans to come out to his homophobic family, growing up with a mother who picked terrible men,  his deadbeat dad and meeting a half-brother & doing a joint road trip to …

Episode 188: Ask Erika Holmes MFT

August 29th, 2014


Marriage and Family Therapist Erika Holmes answers listener questions from Facebook and Twitter.  Topics include Eating Disorders, Borderline …

Episode 187: Susanna Lee

August 22nd, 2014


The comedian/burlesque dancer talks about the power, pitfalls and rush of performing with and without her clothes on, including being a sex worker at a "jack shack" to make ends meet.  She opens up about her low …

Episode 186: Jimmy Doyle

August 15th, 2014


The former Second City improviser turned drug & alcohol counselor talks about his mother's suicide when he was 12, coming out at 16 (in 1981), …

Episode 185: Dese'Rae L Stage

August 8th, 2014


The photographer and activist talks about her bookwormish childhood, coming out in high school, the abusive relationship she couldn't bear to leave …

Episode 184: Pamela Martin

August 1st, 2014


Is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (Fibromyalgia, ME, etc) a purely physical ailment or is there also an emotional component related to trauma.  Pamela shares about being an incest survivor as well as the challenges of living …

Episode 183: Jason Nash

July 25th, 2014


Recently diagnosed with BiPolar II, the actor and director of Jason Nash is Married talks about his fear of being just like his dad, his inability to …

Episode 182: Pia Glenn

July 18th, 2014


The writer/performer shares about being raised by a violent and mentally unstable mother who refused to take meds, often leading to 911 calls and …

Episode 181: Lauren Hennessy

July 11th, 2014


The actor/singer and fiance of past guest Chemda talks about being a trans male (male but born into a female body) and despite his religious upbringing (his father is a minister) coming to embrace being transgender.
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Episode 180: Jill Morley

July 4th, 2014


At 40, Jilll took up competitive boxing to work through the childhood PTSD caused by her mother's physical abuse.  She shares about living with depression, aiding other female fighters and making her documentary Fight …

Episode 179: Tyler W.

June 27th, 2014


The 26 year-old law student talks about his struggles with addiction especially bulimia, assuming the role of caretaker for his alcoholic parents …

Episode 178: Anna Akana

June 20th, 2014


The performer/writer/director best known for her popular YouTube channel opens up about growing up with a Japanese father and Filipino mother where …

Episode 177: Michael H.

June 13th, 2014


The 25 year-old Taiwanese American shares about his co-dependency, painful breakups and perfectionism as well as the irony that as a trained …

Episode 176: Bernadette

June 6th, 2014


The 36 year-old mother shares about the middle-class version of Cops that was her childhood, her Borderline Personality Disorder, suicide attempts …

Episode 174: Andrea Schaeffer

May 23rd, 2014


The Canadian listener talks about the masks she feels she had to wear to deal with childhood sadness, being raped at 16, and experiencing postpartum depression.  She talks about the support groups & the health care …

Episode 173: Julian F

May 16th, 2014


His childhood was a flurry of moving all over Europe and South America, his parents treated him like "Good Cop Bad Cop" and he has no idea why he …

Episode 172: Lynette Carolla

May 9th, 2014


The mother, wife and podcaster(For Crying Out Loud) talks about being pushed to be a child actor, the psychosis that mental illness brought upon her brother and mother, abusing Vicodin in an attempt to deal with …

Episode 171: Tom Kramer

May 2nd, 2014


The writer/director (Fridays, Curb Your Enthusiasm) shares about being sexually shamed, his fear of people and the drug and alcohol battles that took …

Episode 170: Christina Pazsitzky

April 25th, 2014


The standup/actress shares about being the only child of parents who fled Communist Hungary, and after their divorce absorbing the brunt of her mothers mental illness (Borderline Personality Disorder).  She shares about …

Episode 169: Mini Ep - Guilt w/Dr. Guy Winch

April 21st, 2014


Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on how to deal with guilt, plus some listener surveys.
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Episode 168: Sexual Confusion - Kira

April 18th, 2014


The 29 year-old shares about the shame of having intrusive thoughts imagining sex with children; getting blackout drunk to the point of violence and …

Mini Ep #167 - Failure w/Dr. Guy Winch

April 14th, 2014


Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips for dealing with failure.  Guy is the author of the book Emotional First Aid.
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Episode 166: Tracy Irvine

April 11th, 2014


The 40 year-old corporate recruiter shares about growing up with a sick mother (ALS) whose needs overshadowed hers, losing both her parents in her …

Mini Episode 165: Low Self-Esteem (voted #4 ep of 2014)

April 7th, 2014


Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with low self-esteem.
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Episode 164: Natasha L.

April 4th, 2014


After Natasha's mother died she discovered her diaries.  What she read was horrifying to the average person but had the opposite effect on her.  She shares about her mother's apparent Borderline Personality Disorder and …

#163 Mini-Ep: Loneliness w/Dr. Guy Winch (voted #6 ep of 2014)

April 1st, 2014


Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with loneliness.  Guy is the author or the book  Emotional First Aid. …

Episode 162: Monica LIttle

March 28th, 2014


The mother and wife of a combat medic talks about her battles with intimacy, anxiety, drug abuse and the family that turned a blind eye to her pedophile grandfather.  She also talks about how being raped at 19 affected …

Mini-Episode #161: Rejection with Dr. Guy Winch

March 24th, 2014


Clinical psychologist and author of the book Emotional First Aid, Dr. Guy Winch shares some tips and insights on dealing with rejection.  
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Episode 160: Parenting Mental Illness

March 21st, 2014


Listener Joy opens up to Paul about raising a child with mental illness, especially her teenage daughter's Reactive Attachment Disorder, depression, …

Mini Episode #159 - Rumination with Guy Winch PhD (voted #9 ep of 2014)

March 18th, 2014


Paul reads an email, two surveys then talks with author Guy Winch (PhD in clinical psychology) about practical tips to deal with rumination.  Guy is …

Episode 158: Melissa Stetten

March 14th, 2014


The writer/model/actress talks about being raised by dis-interested parents, her battles with depression and the feeling that if she doesn't have a man in her life she feels "worthless".   Melissa is currently a writer …

Episode 157: Nandi La Sophia

March 7th, 2014


At four years-old he told his mom he wanted to be a lady when he grows up.  He shares about the violence inflicted by his complex father and …

Episode 156: Sophie B

February 28th, 2014


The listener discusses hearing voices, dealing with Borderline Personality disorder and/or Bipolar II as well as the abusive "relationship" she had …

Episode 155: Andrew Donnelly

February 21st, 2014


The 46 year-old comedian talks about the frustration and shame of battling ADD and depression while trying to be a good husband and father.  He and …

Episode 154: Dr. Jessica DuBron

February 14th, 2014


The PhD (clinical psychology) shares about working with at-risk youth particularly in the LGBT population and in a Psychiatric Evaluation team, …

Episode 152: Lindsay

January 31st, 2014


The list of major health issues she dealt with in childhood including brain and spine surgeries pale in comparison to the complicated relationship …

Episode 151: Listener Confessions

January 24th, 2014


Culled from a month of surveys filled out by listeners.  Paul reads their shames, secrets, fears, hopes and beautiful moments.  And of course some …

Episode 150: Ryan Sickler

January 17th, 2014


The standup comedian (Comedy Central, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) and podcaster (The Crabfeast) shares about the hatred he endured from his mother and the love from his father and other relatives that saved him.
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Episode 149: Cathy Ladman

January 10th, 2014


The writer (Roseanne) and standup (Tonight Show, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) opens up about the controlling environment she was raised in, her …

Episode 148: Matthew Walden

January 3rd, 2014


Although the writer/listener grew up in Hawaii, his childhood was far from paradise; enduring a cornucopia of PTSD, leaving him wondering what is …

Episode 147: Listener Amelia & Postpartum Depression

December 27th, 2013


Amelia discusses her "nuclear" PMS (called PMDD), her first pregnancy and the pressures she felt for everything to be perfect and the crushing …

Episode 146: Chemda

December 20th, 2013


The podcaster (Keith and the Girl) was raised in NY but born in Israel to a mother of Iraqi heritage and an Iranian father, both of whom had traditional expectations for their daughter, none of which included her being …

Episode 145: Dr. David Lisak

December 13th, 2013


Born in Montreal to a WWII widow, the clinical and forensic psychologist talks about the sexual abuse he experienced as a boy, the stigma and …

Episode 144: Listener Seth

December 6th, 2013


Raised by parents who talked about God a lot, the 29 year-old opens up about the hypocrisy he saw in a mom who couldn't parent him and a trucker dad …

Episode 142: Scott Thompson Live in Toronto

November 22nd, 2013


The comedian/actor/writer (Kids in the Hall, Larry Sanders, Hannibal) opens up about his childhood in Brampton Ontario, coming to terms with his …

Episode 141: Susanna Brisk

November 15th, 2013


Borderline Personality Disorder is often misunderstood.  The blogger, author, performer and mom explains what it's like to live with, how to manage it and when it's most challenging.  She also shares about her …

Episode 140: Paraphilia & Self-Abuse - Listener "D"

November 8th, 2013


The 28 year-old listener opens up about his familiy's history of avoiding emotions, his cries for help, struggling to live on $8/hour, his cutting …

Episode 139: Adoption w/listener Julie J

November 1st, 2013


Born to a drug-addict teenage mom, Julie was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obession with …

Episode 138: Johnny O

October 25th, 2013


Paul's friend shares about being committed to a psych hospital at 17 over a breakup, discovering drugs (crack) and how to hustle money to feed his …

Episode 137: Aisha Tyler Live at LAPodfest

October 18th, 2013


The actress/writer/standup/podcaster/tv host joins Paul at LAPodfest in front of a live audience and discusses her outcast status as a child, where …

Episode 136: Listener Juan Medina

October 11th, 2013


The 26 year-old shares about emigrating to the U.S. from Mexico at 8, his fear of his father, "passing" for white, his body dysmorphia and the …

Episode 135: Christina Jasberg

October 4th, 2013


She was raised by a father with Schizo-Affective Disorder who would often break from reality.  By her twenties she was battling the same disorder …

Episode 134: Transgender Listener "Pidgeon"

September 27th, 2013


He is still physically female but has always identified as a male.  He talks about what it means to be genderfluid or genderqueer as well as …

Episode 133: Adrienne Selbert

September 20th, 2013


Raised by attentive, loving parents she neverlheless grew up with a pervasive feeling of emptiness that she sought to soothe through relationships with men.   In her words she, "Burnt her life to the ground", but used …

Episode 132: Listener Tom Seiniger

September 13th, 2013


The 22 year-old opens up about the guilt and anxiety of growing up feeling like it was his duty to keep his mother out of her depression, even though …

Episode 131: Co-Narcissism (a mini episode)

September 9th, 2013


Paul reads an article written by Alan Rappoport PhD about Co-Narcissism, which he describes as a result of being raised by one or sometimes two …

Episode 130: Cameron Esposito

September 6th, 2013


The standup comedian (Late Night with Craig Ferguson) opens up about her conservative Catholic upbringing and coming to terms with being lesbian. …

Episode 129: David Hirohama on Counseling Predators

August 30th, 2013


The 3rd generation Japanese-American psychologist shares his experience and observations counseling sexual predators (rapists and child molesters) at …

Episode 128: Alison Baziak

August 23rd, 2013


The 31 year-old listener ponders her low self-esteem, food issues, history of self-mutilation, compulsive spending and suicide attempts when her …

Episode 127: Offspring of Holocaust Survivors

August 16th, 2013


Two sons of Holocaust survivors, Michael Rozbruch and Amir Tiles sit down with psychotherapist Joel Schwartz whose grandparents are also survivors …

Episode 126: Therapist Susan Hagen Helps Paul & Listeners

August 9th, 2013


The therapist who is also in recovery helps Paul and some listeners (via surveys) navigate their discomfort and confusion about their current issues. …

Episode 125: Vietnam Vet Randy Olea

August 2nd, 2013


A father/brother figure to Paul, the high-school teacher reflects on his Mexican heritage, violent upbringing, tour in Vietnam, stints as a bouncer …

Episode 124: Amber Tozer

July 26th, 2013


The comedian (Last Comic Standing, Twitwits) talks her own alcoholism, her dad's awkward foray into lingerie photography, craving her mother's …

Episode 123: Baron Vaughn

July 19th, 2013


The actor/comedian (Conan, Jimmy Fallon, Comedy Central) talks about his struggle to feel "authentically black" without betraying who he is, the state of comedy in the black community, honing his artistic voice, and his …

Episode 122: Giving Up Her Baby - Valerie

July 12th, 2013


Valerie, a listener talks about the painful decision she made to give her only son up for adoption years ago when she was 18 and living with her …

Episode 121: Christian Finnegan

July 5th, 2013


The standup comedian (Comedy Central Presents, Chapelle's Show, Best Week Ever, Countdown with Keith Olberman) opens up about the tragedy and parental mental illness that shaped his childhood and still affects him today …

Episode 120: Aspergers - Listener Louise

June 28th, 2013


Her childhood marked with social stress, being bullied, aggressiveness and severe digestive issues (including Barrett's Esophagus a condition …

Episode 119: Raped By His Sister - Tom

June 21st, 2013


Raised by a Baptist preacher who frequently got run out of town and raped by his older sister starting when he was 4, "Tom" has had a lot to work …

Episode 118: Kulap Vilaysack returns!

June 14th, 2013


The actor and podcaster (Who Charted?) returns to the podcast to talk about the struggle to keep a relationship with her mother whose gambling addiction has wreaked havoc on her family's life.
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Episode 117: Paul's Best Friend Dr. Mike Sebahar

June 7th, 2013


The Intervential Pain Specialist has been Paul's best friend since 1982.  They recount the evolotuion of their relationship, especially both dealing …

Episode 116: Listener Meghan P. Returns

May 31st, 2013


Listener Meghan P. returns to talk about being diagnosed with "Psychotic Disorder Not Otherwise Specified" and the hospitalization that resulted from …

Episode 115: Ashly Burch

May 24th, 2013


The writer and actress (Hey Ash, Whatcha' Playin?) and VO artist (Tiny Tina of Borderlands 2) opens up about the recent accidental overdose death of her boyfriend and the struggle to put her life back together.  They …

Episode 114: Listener Michael D. and Breaking the Cycle of Abuse

May 17th, 2013


Michael opens up about his teenage struggle to avoid dealing with his chaotic and abusive childhood by being extremely regimented, resulting in an …

Episode 112: Child Protective Services Social Worker "Ray"

May 3rd, 2013


What is it like to be the government agent that has to physically investigate allegations of abuse or neglect and sometimes even remove children from a home?  "Ray", a 3rd generation social worker opens up about his …

Episode 111: Karen Kilgariff Live in Portland

April 26th, 2013


The actress (Mr. Show) and writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show) shares about struggling to fit in, body shame, her alcoholism, her mother's Alzheimers, …

Episode 110: Greg Behrendt Returns

April 19th, 2013


The podcaster (Walking the Room), author (He's Just Not That Into You) and guitarist (The Reigning Monarchs) returns to discuss the mania, depression and paranoia that left him considering suicide in a Montreal hotel …

Episode 109: Listener Claire Laffar

April 12th, 2013


Claire shares about her bullied upbringing outside London with a neurotic mom and a mysterious, stoic dad prone to explosive fits of rage and how …

Episode 108: Greg Fitzsimmons

April 5th, 2013


The writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Lucky Louie) comedian (Comedy Central, The Howard Stern Show) and podcaster (Fitzdog Radio) opens up about his …

Episode 107: Sara Benincasa

March 29th, 2013


The writer (Agorafabulous!,, and performer (Comedy Central, MTV) talks about a popular friend's suicide in high school that …

Episode 106: Robert Patrick Lewis

March 22nd, 2013


The former Green Beret talks about his childhood in Texas, the loss of his adoptive mother, his tours in Afghanistan, Iraq and Africa, the injury …

Episode 105: Ali Handal

March 15th, 2013


The singer/songwriter guitarist talks to Paul about being a female guitarist in a male-dominated industry, her negative self-talk, fear of failure, …

Episode 104: Siblings/Listeners John & Megan Brehman

March 8th, 2013


The siblings discuss growing up in an affluent but emotionally witholding household, and how their struggles with depression and her eating disorder …

Episode 103: Emily Gordon

March 1st, 2013


The podcaster (Indoor Kids) and former licensed therapist opens up about her battle with Adult Onset Still's Disease, her mentally-ill grandmother, …

Episode 102: Peter T

February 22nd, 2013


Paul's friend opens up about being adopted by a physically and sexually abusive paranoid schizophrenic mother, being a child actor and almost dying …

Episode 101: Stefanie Wilder-Taylor

February 15th, 2013


The writer (I'm Kind of a Big Deal) podcaster (For Cryin' Out Loud) and tv host (Parental Discretion on Nick Mom) opens up about her alcoholism, …

Episode 100: Brody Stevens

February 8th, 2013


The actor (The Hangover, The Hangover 2) and standup comedian (Comedy Central Presents, Chelsea Lately, TMZ) talks about his very public manic episode in 2011, the blurry line between his onstage persona and his real …

Episode 099: Jess

February 1st, 2013


Paul's friend opens about her chaotic childhood, her abandonment issues, and the struggling to find words to categorize the sex she wanted and got at …

Episode 98: Ed Crasnick

January 25th, 2013


The actor (The Sopranos), standup and podcaster (The Self-Help Comedy Hour) talks with Paul about his lifelong battle with anxiety and low …

Episode 097: Elizabeth Laime

January 19th, 2013


The podcaster (Totally Laime and Totally Married) and aspiring writer chats with Paul about her idyllic upbringing, tragedy, loss, Xmas, porn, …

Episode 96: Escort/Prostitute Lillith

January 11th, 2013


"Lillith" (not her real name) opens up to Paul about why she chooses to moonlight as an escort/prostitute, even though her day job pays the bills. …

Episode 95: Maria Bamford

December 2nd, 2012


The groundbreaking comedian (Comedy Central Presents:, Comedians of Comedy, Sarah Silverman Program) and voiceover artist (Wordgirl, Adult Swim) …

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