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Living Truthfully

85 EpisodesProduced by Amani MarangaWebsite

Authentic conversations of an African Man, discovering self, owning choices, building spirituality, parenting, navigating relationships, work and business and all that is life

85 Episodes | 2018 - 2021

Episode #85 Rethinking Marriage - Feat. Emmanuel Gachanja

November 12th, 2021

1:27:07

It is another Ushago edition! I love it when good people come visit me in the village ☺️, this one especially because he’s been making waves in the weddings and marriage scene. Are we well prepared for our marriages? …

Episode#84 "What Worries you, Masters you" Featuring Uncle Kamande

October 14th, 2021

1:13:05

Uncle Kamande has always been one of my coolest uncles, had this airport gig that had him in sunglasses and a walkie talkie, as a kid nothing could …

#Episode 83 Learning My "Enough" Feat. Kevin Mwachiro

July 22nd, 2021

1:05:15

A few months ago I relocated from Nairobi, in a quest to understand what my move meant, I visited an old friend who had made a similar move 3 years …

Episode #82 - Pushing through the Pain of Change feat. Roy 'King' Wachira

May 7th, 2021

1:09:07

How does it feel to be an entrepreneur in Kenya right now? With the un-predictable pandemic and lockdowns? Does experience prepare you enough? Listen to Roy’s story, and maybe you will identify, or get inspired to push …

Episode #81 How to Treat Covid-19 at Home and Save your Parents- Feat Dr. Wahome Ngare!

April 8th, 2021

1:18:37

Hey good people!! This is probably the most important episode I have ever recorded. As promised Dr. Wahome and I chat about Covid treatment, prevention and what the field of medicine is learning. He shared his heart on …

Episode #80 I Got Covid-19 And Other Short Stories

April 4th, 2021

38:41

Yes! I got Covid-19 and by God’s grace Survived. Here’s my story of that experience. Please listen, share and feedback and if you’d like to support this podcast, please send your support via MPESA till number 5305207, …

Episode #79 - Don't miss your chance to Dance ft Mugambi Nthiga

March 12th, 2021

1:54:11

What an episode we have for you!!! Award winning actor, director and Ad man Mugambi Nthiga (Mugash) came over to the house and we had the most awesome conversation on our life journeys, the learnings and yes being …

Episode #78 Success and Happiness Lies in You ft Joram Mwinamo

February 19th, 2021

1:23:29

Joram Mwinamo is the founder of Wylde and The SNDBX. He has tasted success despite some very challenging circumstances, oh and he was my very first housemate when I eventually moved out of my parents home. From a humble …

Episode #77 " How to die well" feat. Anthony (Tosh) Mwaniki

February 14th, 2021

1:02:44

My Friend Tosh sadly lost his dad last month, you’ll remember him from Episode 26 when I interviewed both of them. After laying his dad to rest, Tosh wanted to share lessons from his father, who by all accounts finished …

Episode #76 "Am I a human doing or a human being?" feat Aaron Rimbui

February 4th, 2021

1:15:35

Maestro Pianist Aaron Rimbui dropped in at my place to hang out. It’s been a few years since he relocated to New York, has it been a good move? Do you know the story behind his burns? Listen, Share and feedback. If like …

Episode #75 “You Don’t Succeed Everyday” Feat Michael Hjelmåker!

January 21st, 2021

57:41

During International Men’s day last year I attended an event hosted by the Swedish Embassy for men, dubbed “#GlobalGuyTalk. At the event I met the host, the Deputy Swedish Ambassador who is passionate about authentic …

Episode#74 "There are a lot of ways to live" feat Dan and Avi

November 27th, 2020

56:44

What does a weary traveler know? A Lot! I had the privilege of hosting two Israeli travelers and we had a chat and boy was I humbled by the things I learnt! This is a must listen, and please share and feedback

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Episode #73 The Opportunity in front of you( Ft. Torooti Mwirigi)

November 19th, 2020

1:07:54

It’s international Men’s day and we are celebrating all the roles that men play!How do you recognize the opportunity in front of you? I have a …

Episode #72 "Who’s with you in the storm?” featuring Eric Thimba

October 23rd, 2020

1:32:52

This is one of the deepest most encouraging conversations I have had in a while. I invited Thimba over because of his fascinating business Mookh.com, I wasn’t ready for why he shared! A must listen episode, and please …

Episode #71 - "Is Job loss a blessing in disguise?" Feat. Joseph Kamata

October 16th, 2020

1:23:38

My friend Kamata came over and boy didn’t he have a story! What’s your typical reaction when you’re edged out of your job? Fear? Anxiety? Is there opportunity in job loss? You better listen and share and feedback!!

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Episode #70 "Give me a Break" Feat. Anthony Mwaniki

October 9th, 2020

1:03:43

In this epsiode Tosh and I discuss how to recognize burn out, from his own story and how to prevent it and deal with it. 10th October 2020 marks World Mental Health Day. This comes at a time when our daily reality has …

Episode #69 "Are you Living Life or Living Expectations" Feat. Tony Ngatiari

October 1st, 2020

1:04:29

Tony has lived many lives in a very short time. 

In this conversation we dive into picking ourselves up when life has happened to us. He challenged me to live for everything that it is, rather than live for other …

Episode #68 "There is Purpose in your Pain" Feat. Biko Mang'ula

September 25th, 2020

52:45

What do you do when you feel you’ve watched the end of your rope? What do you do with the pain of failure? I have found that you can find purpose from your pain and this is exactly what Biko came to share with me. How …

Episode #67 "Healing Starts at the Rehab...or After" Feat. Gregory Ndege

September 17th, 2020

1:08:11

The truth is I am concerned at how important alcohol has become for the average Kenyan man, 
After Solomon's mind bending episode, Gregory reached out …

Episode #66 "A Quarter Mile at a Time" Feat. Paul Mumo Kimuyu "Pablo"

September 3rd, 2020

59:33

In this episode I get into the mind of an advertising genius, as he shares his life a quarter mile at a time. 

He shares candidly from his experience, life, friendships and love. 

Please listen share and feedback! 

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Episode #65 "Love in Absentia" Feat. Dr. TIm Theuri

August 27th, 2020

1:16:36

Why does love hurt? Does it hurt men too? Dr. Tim and I have a candid conversation, on dating, undating, redating and the mess that comes with it, as we make some ribs! 

In this episode as well I give an opportunity to …

Episode #64 "ADDICTION" - "Rock Bottom Finds a Basement" - Feat. Solomon Gitau (Part 2)

July 9th, 2020

1:35:50

Did you know rock bottom had a basement? 

If you thought last week's episode was dramatic, wait until you hear this one!! 

In this episode we go deeper into the dark deep throws of the abyss that is addiction and its …

Episode #63 "ADDICTION" - "Booze turned me to a Chokora" -Feat. Solomon Gitau Kilanga (Part 1)

July 2nd, 2020

50:40

A few of my friends have been to rehab recently for alcohol addiction, and I am concerned about how important alcohol has become in our society. 

Episode #62 "DAD'ing Different" Feat. Bruce Muchelule

June 18th, 2020

51:20

Fatherhood is a gift, and this is our Father's day special!!

How do men experience pregnancy? How do we experience childbirth? 

Bruce and I share an interesting and intimate conversation. Please listen, feedback and …

Episode #61 "We can't get a child! Should we adopt?" Feat. Gowi Odera

June 1st, 2020

1:09:42

What happens when you are unable to get a child? My Friend, brother and Pastor Gowi Odera, takes us through his journey, through childhood that shaped his thoughts on adoption and then through his marriage and the …

Episode #60 "How do we Respond to Covid-19?" Feat. Tonee Ndungu

April 23rd, 2020

26:32

Tonee Ndungu is one of my most "woke" friends. He actually challenges some of the social structures I have grown up to believe are true. 

In this …

Episode #59 "Coping With Covid-19" Feat. Sidney Nderitu & Martin Wambua

April 20th, 2020

29:09

It's April 2020 and Covid- 19 has forced many of us into isolation and social distancing so as to slow down the spread of the disease. 

In this …

Episode #58 "Dealing with Isolation" Feat. Eddy Peter

April 6th, 2020

35:11

Hey guys, how are you doing? How are you dealing with Isolation? In this SELF PRODUCED Episode I call a friend and discuss how he is dealing with …

Episode #57 "Dealing with Isolation" Feat. Fareed Khimani

March 25th, 2020

15:43

So we are all facing isolation as we quarantine during this unusual season of Covid 19. How are you dealing with Isolation? I give a call to Fareed …

Episode #56 "What’s Masculinity in the 21st century?” Feat. Kimathi Kaumbutho (Yours Truly)

March 12th, 2020

47:15

I met “Yours Truly” at an event “The Inside Man” a few weeks ago and his spoken word piece blew my mind....it was like he was inside my head, so I …

Episode #55 "Made for Friendship" with Pastor Drew Hunter

March 5th, 2020

42:13

Pastor Drew Hunter and I explore male friendships , why they are important and what makes them work. He is wisdom and passion in one package, listen share and feedback.

Drew Hunter is the author of Made for Friendship: …

Episode #54 "Male Friendship" - "Who are your Boys?" Feat. Gerald Owino and Kanjii Mbugua

February 27th, 2020

1:10:20

The journey of vulnerability is hardest with the people who know you most, and these two friends are at the core of my inner circle. These are my …

Episode #53 "Male Friendship" - "Who are your Boys " Feat. Big Ted

February 20th, 2020

57:09

In this episode I have a candid chat with my good friend Thomas Edwin Kwaka aka BIG TED . Big Ted shares what he’s learnt from working in government, the value of real friendship and we catch up and ponder on this one …

Episode #52 "Male Friendship" - "Who are your Boys?" Feat. Gowi Odera

February 13th, 2020

1:01:00

I continue on a quest to explore male friendships and if they have any value. Are male friendships important? Is there any reward for vulnerability …

Episode #51 "Male Friendship" - " Who are your Boys?" Feat. Mwongera Mutiga

February 6th, 2020

1:13:44

Do male friendships have any value? Is there any reward for vulnerability with the boys? Are male friendships based on need only? My long time friend …

Episode #50 "Falling down is an accident. Staying down is a Choice" Feat. Eddy Kimani (Part 2)

January 30th, 2020

47:37

REDEMPTION! Eddy Kimani’s story has a beautiful redemption, and I am a sucker for happy endings, so here is a happy ending 😄. Please listen, share …

Episode #49 "Falling down is an accident. Staying down is a choice" Feat. Eddy Kimani (Part 1)

January 23rd, 2020

53:47

In this episode Eddy Kimani shares details of an adventurous decade. He shares his successes and some of his failures. Listen share and feedback

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Episode #48 "The Reward is in taking the Risk" Feat. Anthony "Tosh" Mwaniki

January 16th, 2020

58:58

In this episode Tosh and I look back into the last decade and draw learnings for ourselves, acknowledging what its done for us and why we must take bigger risks in the new decade! Listen, Share and Feedback

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Episode #47 "The Center of every Man's Existence is a Dream"

January 10th, 2020

14:26

Martin Luther King Junior changed the world with a speech about dreams. He knew that dreams capture the essence of our desires and motivations, dreams bring our imagination to life! It’s 2020, can you dream(again)? …

Episode #46 " The New Year, Self Reflection and Decade Thinking" Feat. Edward Wanyonyi and Eric Kinyua

January 2nd, 2020

1:08:06

In this episode Edward, Erick and I reflect on 2019 and cast forward the next decade. What’s your plan for the next decade? Listen, feedback and share!!

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Episode #45 "Christmas memories, the Star and New Beginnings" by Amani Maranga Feat. Eric Kinyua

December 25th, 2019

23:31

In this episode I reflect on the growth I’ve had since last year Christmas, I interview a friend who’s going through his first Christmas “alone” and I share my message for this season. Thank you for your continued …

Episode #44 "Co-parenting 101" - " There is no such thing as a perfect Parent. So just be a real one" Feat. Moses Nderitu

December 13th, 2019

1:05:43

In this episode Moses Nderitu and I sit down to chat  co-parenting.  This is probably one of the most difficult challenges any parent could face and …

Episode #43 "Co-parenting 101" - "Fortunate to have great co-parents" Feat. Tonee Ndung'u

December 6th, 2019

58:47

In this episode Tonee Ndungu and I discuss, co parenting and everything in between i.e. career, sex, owning mistakes, his children etc. This is a …

Episode #42 "Co parenting 101" - "Co parenting is not a Competition" Feat. Robert Burale

December 1st, 2019

59:18

In this episode Robert Burale and I discuss, celibacy, sex, owning our pasts and finally co parenting. This is a must listen conversation, please …

Episode #41 "Friendship can only be Purchased by Friendship" Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua

November 7th, 2019

1:01:21

In this episode I have a conversation with Dr. Oscar Githua a Psychologist and good friend. We discuss the “Jujube” doll and he shares his thoughts …

Episode #40 "Scars and Stilettos" - "How women hurt the male ego" Feat. Dr. Jay Carter

October 31st, 2019

56:33

In this episode I have a conversation with Dr. Jay Carter a Psychologist from Pennsylvania. USA. He shares an interesting concept on the power men …

Episode #39 "Self Doubt & Fear - Greatest killers of personal genius"

October 24th, 2019

16:01

In this episode I share the effects of failure on my confidence, I share my challenges with self doubt and my source of inspiration. What’s your hack to confidence? Listen, share and leave me a voice message

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Episode #38 "Things can change in an instant. So why not live truthfully"

October 19th, 2019

14:05

In this episode I reflect on my healing journey, and how the Vicissitudes of life affect my journey of Living Truthfully. Do you relate? Please …

Episode #37 "Scars and Stilettos" - “She said she doesn’t date short men!” - Feat. “The Intern”

September 21st, 2019

41:55

In this episode “The Intern” shares how rejection traumatized him, and has never dated at 26yrs. Listen, share and please feedback!

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Episode #36 "Scars and Stilettos " - "My breakup sent me to a psychiatric ward!” Feat. Dannish Odongo

September 14th, 2019

57:11

In this episode Dannish Odongo shares how a broken relationship breaks his spirit and his mind. He shares candidly about his battle with anxiety as a …

Episode #35 "Men and their Hustle" - “I Lost my First Business to Debt" Feat. Zimbabwean Simbarashe Mabasha

August 29th, 2019

52:00

In our last installment of this series, I have a conversation with a visiting Zimbabwean trying to break through to the African Market. He shares his failures, his successes and his ambition. Simba also gives us an …

Episode #34 "Men and their Hustle" - "I was auctioned 11 times, but later launched a 64 million dollar power plant" - Feat. S.K. Blue

August 10th, 2019

1:12:31

Samuel Kuria aka S.K BLue shares his entrepreneurial journey. What principles and philosophies he has learnt from his failures (auctioned 11 times) that set him up to run several companies under a private equity fund …

Episode #33 "Men and their Hustle" - The Rich also Cry - Feat. Moses Nderitu (Part 2)

July 26th, 2019

32:10

Who are the entrepreneurs you admire? What is it about their lifestyle you admire? Have you ever considered what's behind the person, or who they go home to? What makes them cry? Moses Nderitu a serial entrepreneur and …

Episode #32 "Men and their Hustle" - The Rich also Cry - Feat. Moses Nderitu (Part 1)

July 18th, 2019

57:36

Who are the entrepreneurs you admire? What is it about their lifestyle you admire? Have you ever considered what's behind the person, or who they go home to? What makes them cry? Moses Nderitu a serial entrepreneur and …

Episode #31 "Men and their Hustle" - Righteous Anger by Amani Maranga

July 13th, 2019

9:33

This “Men and their Hustle” series has made me realize that I have a lot of unresolved anger, in my journey of living Truthfully these are my musings …

Episode #30 "Men and their Hustle" - Feat. Sumeet Walia

July 5th, 2019

59:31

What happens when you build a multi million business only to see it collapse? How do you build again? Sumeet and I delve into his story and the …

Episode #29 "Men and their Hustle" Feat. Steve Kariuki

June 30th, 2019

58:41

It is widely accepted in most societies that men are providers. So what do they have to do and what do they go through to provide, build a career or a business? How do they handle failure and success? What motivates …

Episode #28 “Men and their Hustle”- Feat. Steve Nyumba

June 22nd, 2019

50:34

It is widely accepted in most societies, that men are providers. So what do they have to do to provide, to build a career or a business? How do they handle failure and success? What motivates them? Listen, share and …

Episode #27 "Papa was a Rolling Stone" (Dad is Destiny) Feat. Pastor Simon Mbevi

June 14th, 2019

1:18:12

In this final episode on Papa/ Father Series, we discuss with Pastor Simon Mbevi founder of Transforms Nations on the difference a Father makes based …

Episode #26 “Papa was a Rolling Stone” ( My Father, My Friend) Feat. Jotham & Anthony Mwaniki

June 6th, 2019

42:15

In this episode, I take a road trip & have the awesome privilege of witnessing a great father and son relationship, as I glean Wisdom for my own fathering journey.

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Episode #25 "Papa was a Rolling Stone" (Who’s Yo Daddy- Engage 24)

May 23rd, 2019

27:27

I had the honor of speaking at the 24th Edition of Engage Nairobi a Kenyan speaking platform now growing In East Africa, telling my own father story. This is the audio recording of that talk....Listen, share and please …

Episode #24 “Papa was a Rolling Stone” ( Father’s Step Up!) Feat. Oyunga Pala

May 17th, 2019

53:40

Alpha Male, Celebrated writer and Journalist Oyunga Pala talks about his dad, his journey as a new dad and challenges men, to stand up and be counted as fathers!

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Episode #23 "Papa was a Rolling Stone" (I Love you Dad)- Feat. Edwin M. Kinoti

May 9th, 2019

34:38

For some reason in these parts of the world we don’t tell our dads that we love them, we just never say those words to our fathers. So what happens if we do? Edwin find out.. Listen Share and feedback

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Episode #22 "Papa was a Rolling Stone"- (A Long Distance One)- Feat. Sydney Nderitu

May 3rd, 2019

40:09

Should dad’s be in the delivery room for their children? What happens when dad relocates to another country? These are just some of the conversations …

Episode #21 "Papa was a Rolling Stone"- (Blended Daddy) Feat. Edward Wanyonyi

April 25th, 2019

45:00

In this episode Edward and I explore influences from his absent father and introduce his blended family dad situation....please listen, share and feedback

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Episode #20 "Papa was a Rolling Stone"- (Father Unworthy) Feat. Paul Otieno aka Pau Shinski

April 18th, 2019

34:49

His dad died 20yrs ago, and now he is a father of 3 wonderful girls trying to figure his way around this eternal role. Are Fathers important? Did you …

Episode #19 “Hostage 101 Relationships" Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua (Round 5)

April 4th, 2019

53:10

In this Episode we discuss 
1. Biology: Women cycles and its connection in choosing preferred mate.  1:49 - 7:50
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Episode #18 Are men in “HOSTAGE SITUATIONS?” Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua (Round 4)

March 28th, 2019

27:59

Dr. Oscar explains why men in most relationships are in hostage situations! Listen, share and feedback!!!

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Episode #17 "The Catch Up" A Heart to Hart Feat. Chris Hart- (Round 3)

March 21st, 2019

38:39

Chris Hart a renowned psychologist and relationship guru comes in to add insight on how men make relationship decisions, or do they?

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Episode #16 “The Catch Up” Feat. Michael Oyier (Round 2)

March 16th, 2019

41:25

In this episode Michael and I explore some of the nuances raised in previous episodes of the podcast. Listen, share and feedback

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Episode #15 “The Catch Up” Feat. Michael Oyier (Round 1).

March 7th, 2019

25:33

In this episode former news anchor now turned counseling psychologist and Life, Career & Communication Coach, Michael Oyier, and I catch up and …

Episode #14 “Bruh! Why are you Still Single?” (Part 3)

March 1st, 2019

49:50

In this final installment of this series we have two brothers open up and share why they haven’t gotten married yet...listen, feedback and share!!!

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Episode #13 “Bruh! Why are you Still single?” (Part 2)

February 21st, 2019

38:57

In this episode we continue the conversation with guys who are at “marriage age” who have never been married. Amani Maranga asks them why!

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Episode #12 “Bruh! Why are you Still Single?”

February 14th, 2019

36:27

Why would a man at “marriage age” not want to walk down the aisle? Do they feel societal pressure? In this episode we start a new series talking to …

Episode #11 “Why do Men get Married?” (Part 3)

February 7th, 2019

23:10

In this second last installment of this series, Amani interviews two old friends, one whose marriage ended and one who’s about to get married, all in …

Episode #10 “Why do Men get Married?” (Part 2)

January 31st, 2019

28:27

In this episode Amani Maranga continues conversations with different men in a quest to understand what they considered when getting married...and more

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Episode #9 "Why do Men get Married?" (Part 1)

January 28th, 2019

30:31

What goes on in the mind of a man when he’s ready to get married? How does he know he’s ready? What are the things that men consider when choosing a partner to marry? Amani Maranga interviews several men in a quest to …

Episode #8 “Heal the Boy, Make a Man” (Part 3) Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua

January 21st, 2019

24:33

In this episode, Forensic scientist Dr.Oscar Githua and Amani Maranga conclude the conversation on the “Pain Bank”...listen in to this last part of the friendly “shrink” session

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Episode #7 "Heal the Boy, Make a Man" (Part 2) Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua

January 18th, 2019

31:04

Do you know you carry a “Pain Bank?” Do you know the events that deposited in your “Pain Bank?” Dr. Oscar Githua and I continue the conversation on cycles and expand on the “Pain Bank!”

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Episode #6 “Heal the Boy, Make a Man” (Part 1) Feat. Dr. Oscar Githua

January 10th, 2019

23:39

Dr. Oscar a Forensic Psychologist take Amani Maranga back to his 9yr old self, revealing how that boy affects the man 30 yrs later!

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Episode #5 "Truth is not Neat!" (Part 2) Feat. Marcus Olang’

December 31st, 2018

32:56

Marcus Olang’ and I talk about coping with “break up” pain...and the question of faith!

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Episode #4 "Truth is not Neat!" (Part 1) Feat. Marcus Olang’. Men hurt in break ups too!

December 29th, 2018

31:14

In this episode Marcus Olang’ and I bust the myth that Men don’t feel the pain of break ups...

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Episode #2 "Crossing Fingers is NOT a Strategy!"

December 4th, 2018

7:07

How to recognize moments when you’re making significant decisions

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Episode #1 "Healing through Acceptance"

December 4th, 2018

10:13

Adulting is about accepting who you are, your choices and your experiences and embracing all that you are...

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